Anniversary while living abroad
This week will be my mothers 2 year anniversary - she died suddenly but after years of physical and mental health problems. We were lucky to have her as long as we did, in the end her broken heart finally gave in. The difficult part was there was no goodbye as she was alone in her apartment, also that she had so many problems - the worst being her depression and anxiety., however the last 6 months with her were really nice and I got my mother back after years of her being 'gone' due to alcohol and prescription drugs. Needless to say the bottom fell out of my world when she died, she was my best friend and my confidence and strength - I did everything with her support and encouragement. after she died I had very bad anxiety (I was 26 at the time) and took medication it for 6 months until I sad no more. I stayed with my godparents for this time and they were brilliant, they were exactly what I needed, a strong stable family. I picked myself back up, did really well in work and moved out, in that time I reaslised I wanted to try get a job abroad again (I was looking prior to her dying) so I took a month trip to Thailand on my own (group holiday) to decide on what I wanted. I came home and interviewed for a job in mainland Europe and got it. I'm here 6 months and its just been great, I have some great new friends and have met a great guy. I'm with the guy 3 months now and everything is going great, but this week i'm finding very difficult, last year I was at home for the anniversary but being abroad is so difficult - I don't know how to explain or how to 'be' with my boyfriend or anyone here for that matter - none of these people knew me before 6 months ago. I've been keeping it together for a few days now but its taking its toll on me. Has anyone else had a similar experience? Dealing with these emotions in a strange place with new people?