another birthday coming up ronnie

by kathy

ronnie was my only child he would have been 39 this year on may 15th.I lost my son august 25 2010.sometimes I think i'm the only one that remembers what that day is.the offical report was heart failure.but i was the one that had to make the decision to stop his feeding.Iknew ronnie would not have wanted to live the way he was ,he could not do anything for still doesnt take away the guilt I feel. Ihad a joke I would always say to him I would say you are my favorite son he would reply mom im your only son.I miss hearing mom said to me.

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May 01, 2012
your sorrow is mine
by: Molly

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful son, I can tell you I know the pain and agony you are going through as I loss my only son July 18 2011. I am not looking forward to the arrival of that day but I know I have no choice it is on it's way. I had planned to sleep through it and just ignore it. Not light a candle or do any special things to remember the worst day of my life. However several friends want to spend that day with me I don't know what we will do talk, tell stories or just sit in silence. I am still in disbelief every morning I wake up and every night I go to bed that my beautiful, fun loving son lost his life due to heart conditions. He was exercising he was playing and his life ends! It is the hardest thing to come to terms with and I am lost and confused and just yearning to see his face and talk to him and love him again. I just keep wondering how long that will be. How do we continue life without our source of life our reason for living and feeling whole. I am doing everything I can to try and cope knowing that this is what my son would want but everyday I pray to have eternal sleep. I hope to accept this loss at some point because the reality is that children die everyday but it never becomes real to us until it touches our family thats when the shock and numb reality is real, but where there is life there will always be death but in our case not in the natural progression of things and thats what hurts the most. All I can tell you is try to keep yourself busy, talk about your child as much as you can, start a hobbie whatever it will take to redirect some of your sorrow. I wish you peace and blessings to be sent your way.

Apr 30, 2012
So sorry
by: Anonymous


Having never lost a child I cannot say that I understand you pain. I lost my hustand 6 months ago tomorrow.

This journey is not an easy one for any of us. I wish I could take away your pain but I know that is not possible.

All any of us can do is take one breath, one step and one day at a time. My thoughts and prayers are with you, Kathy. I know this must be a difficult time for you. Come here and vent if need be or what ever makes you comfortable. I wish I could offer you something to help ease the pain, except to say that I am so sorry for your loss.

May God bless you and hold you in the hollow of His hand. Take care as we will all eventually work through this grief we are trying to understand.

Prayers are being sent your way.

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