I lost my loving husband on Dec 8,2010. My children and I have gone through so many 1st. The first Christmas, New Years, my birthday, our anniversary, valentines day, each of my children's birthday's,Easter, mother's day and now we are coming upon Father's Day. Everyone of those firsts have been difficult for my family. I know for my children Father's Day will be so very hard. My husband Gene was such a wonderful dad and husband. It is so difficult coping with my own grief, but to see the sadness in their eyes and hear it in their voices makes this journey even harder, because my heart goes out to them as they grieve the loss of their dad. Our family has a strong faith in God and know that Gene is in peace and in the loving hands of our Lord. But for all of us these firsts are so hard. I ask that God watch over my children and help them to get through Father's Day and every day without their Dad. I am hoping that all of you on this site find peace as you too go through the Firsts, every day is hard, but the firsts just seem to be unbearable.
Today is Fathers Day. It brings a pain in my heart for my children who will miss the wonderful influence of their father Paul Holt.
He was so many things but now I can remember the laughter. He had a great laugh and I feel blessed to have that memory come to mind this morning. He was also a hard worker never had a lazy day in his life. So many things about him that I hope get passed down to the children. The older kids in their 20's had a chance to know him with all his wonderful qualities and faults. But I fear the youngest who was 11 when his dad died lost the most.
I feel they were cheated out of 40 years or more of lessons that life had given him. His wonderful sense of humour and the southern charm that made him a Holt. He was a wonderful influence one that I can not live up to. I will try to retain some of his qualities that I admired the most so that they have a chance to see what a decent honest human being can be. That the rewards for living the golden rule are not always financial but you can sleep each night knowing that you did your best and stepped on no one getting there. Always Hope M. Holt and proud to be.
