Another Lesson Learned
It is coming on three years now since Kent left this life. I have kept very busy and am blessed with a close family and many dear friends but the emptiness is always present. At this point I accept this will be a constant for the rest of my life. During the past two weeks I was very sick with bronchitis (I'm seldom ill) and as the days passed with no one home to take care of me, I became more and more emotional about how physically alone I am. No one to prepare a meal or bring meds or walk the dog or just straighten up the bed sheets. Because I felt so sick I felt really bad. It was another pity party of one. Many follks live alone and have to be their own caretakers during illness but this was my first go round. I am better now and discovered another strength. I really can do it! I'd sure rather not - Kent really took good care of me whenever I was sick during our 43 years together - but during this never ending journey through grief I discovered another strength. It's a small thing in the big picture but for now a big thing in my small picture.