Another Month gone by
On May 20th it will be 8 months since my son died. Again this week is very emotional leading up to the 20th. Everytime I think Im taking steps forward I get stopped in my tracks again.I know there will always be a part of me that died with him but does it ever really get easier or less painful ? Will I ever be able to have a day without tears ? Right now the future looks just as painful & sad as it is today. My friends, my son's friend & even my kids avoid me.I know I depress everyone but I just can't be the fun loving ready to go person I was 8 months ago.I even noticed some of my friends on facebook have deleted me. The bad part is I really don't care.