(Arms wide open - Allie Bart )
Whenever I hear that song by creed called with arms wide open I think of the moment when my oldest brother Bart died. That was the song on the radio the moment he passed. The song starts out well,I just heard the news today, it seems my life if going to change. I am the youngest girl of six children and he was my oldest brother. We were like the Brady bunch except the three boys were born first and then three girls, We had the closest relationship out of any one in our family. I miss him so much, when he died i felt like a part of me died. My heart hurts, a scar that runs so deep is evident. My brother started having kidney dialysis treatments and did well for a few years and then started to go down hill. I know now he is in a better place and has no more pain.
Some valuable words he said to me growing up - you are number one, look out for yourself, nip it at the bud and I love you . Lord knows I love you my brother Bart. I miss you and mom and dad. Someday I will see you all in heaven. I feel so alone. My other two brothers do not talk, call or visit my two sisters and myself. What a shame. If anything happens to my sis Rosey I will crumble. She is my best friend. Stress is a very hard thing for your health, we lost my dad first , my mom, my brother, my future mother in law and father in law. Each feeling is different. My dad and mom passing were totally different than when my brother died. I have to pause now for a moment to dry my eye as I am crying nonstop. It still feels like it was yesterday. I will cherish the time we had together, the laughs we had, going out together to the movies, dinner, a restaurant, a car show, we did so much together, to my brother, as I,told dad, of all my favorite things to do, I love to sit and think of you. I love you big brother. RIP.
Signed your baby sister