As Christmas Comes My heart Breaks
Our Last Christmas At Home
I work and work to keep busy because I'm alone. Last year I was with my brother and his wife so I wasn't truly alone through the holidays. This year its different...
I have my own place, I have a job, I have my mother but my heart is aching for my love gone.
I've put up the Christmas tree but there's a shadow of sadness that surrounds it even though the light shine and twinkle.
The Christmas shows are filled with love and family, my family is gone, my Billy and me are apart.
How can a heart hurt so much. All I can think of is "What I want for Christmas" as the song goes but I can't get it.
"I'll be home for Christmas" pulls at my heart, it tears my emotions in to turmoil and pain so deep in my heart I swear it will stop beating... the separation of two hearts that were once one ~
So much happiness to the world but pain and despair in mine, longing and feelings of sadness consume me.
I lay my heart and soul before god and pray my soul to keep and help me journey through the this sea of pain, heartbreak and devastation for a love no longer with me but now with him.
How do I continue.. ???
1 step, 1 breath at a time ~ 1 year, 5 months....