As Time Passed By

by Bao
(Sacramento, Ca,USA)

I'm a young widow. I lost my husband 2 years ago due to a tragedy. Not a single day pass by I don't think of him. I had my days of crying, loneliness, sorrow,etc. There are many nights I can't sleep because the thought of him run through my mind all night long. I cried myself to sleep and ask GOD why did he had to take my husband away. Every night I would go to bed hoping that it was just a dream and when I wake up tomorrow he he will be laying in bed next to me like before. Every morning,I would wake up and he is not there. To make it through my day,I would hope that he is coming home like always after work...and I will wait and wait and wait for him to come home, and he never came back. Losing him is the hardest thing ever happen in my life. He was my best friend, my hero, my everything. Everyday and night I still wait for him...I miss him very much. And I want so much to see him again. I don't know what it is...But I missed him deeply and this feeling is killing me. No one knows, and no one sees, what I'm going through. I feel like I'm alone in this. "Lor, where ever you are I wanted you to know that I miss you very much. And that I love." :(****CRYING*****