Beautiful baby Boy..

by Broken

I have a beautiful 4 month old baby,
His name is Ryder Cody,
He is perfect, he is everything I imagined.

Being a mother is amazing, the way I feel when I hold him, he is truly everything to me.

I lost my husband Cody in Jan of this year.
I was 7 months pregnant with Ryder at the time.

I need to know how I explain this to him someday?

How do I explain that his daddy was murdered?
How do I explain that Cody wanted to be a dad so bad.

Cody was only 21 and I was 20 years old but we wanted to be parents, We were married and so in love everything was perfect but then he made a mistake left in the middle of the night, he took his gun with him and next thing I know, Cody has been shot and killed.

How do I tell my son the story some day? I want to always talk about cody but when do I tell him that his daddy was killed?

WIll i be strong enough to tell him..

Its so painful to think of the day ryder asks me questions,
I hope I can Answer then for him.


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Jul 31, 2012
Beautiful baby boy
by: Doreen U.K.

Dear Broken, I do remember your last post and me answering this. It is a very sad place for you be. Such a young widow. Don't discount your life as being over. You just may meet someone in life who will love you enough to marry you and take on your son ryder. Don't be offended at this remark. Cody will always be ryder's dad. But in life you are too young to go on alone for the rest of your life. Cody would benefit from having a male mentor in his young life to help and guide him. Cody would see this a very positive. No one is harming your son but see this as to ryder's benefit. You are young. You will wonder how you will tell ryder about his father? When to tell him? As you get older you will automatically mature and you will be thinking differently and you will Know better later in life when the right time is to tell you son about his father. Your circumstances may be different and you may know just what to say at the time. Don't worry too much about this now. Just concentrate on getting through your grief. Being a Mom. and seeing that you are supported and not in a difficult place that could cause you to be depressed. The challenges of living, and motherhood is difficult and you need to be supported and not left ALONE with your grief.

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