Beautiful Dottie Girl

by Kelly
(Columbia Md)

It has been three weeks since my beautiful Dottie Girl passed away. She had skin cancer twice and even though I gave her the Lyme shots she got Lymes disease. She stopped eating dog food the 1st of October, and I made her hamburger and eggs, anything so she would eat. I even took her through the Mc Donalds drive through for hamburgers.

She still liked to walk so I thought, she was just a little sick from the Lymes that we were treating her for. But we found out she had a tumor somewhere and she was bleeding internally. She had already had 3 surgeries for the skin cancer, it was just too much.

I slept with her for the 3 weeks , and on her final evening I knew she was suffering. I prayed and asked God to just let her fall asleep and join him. I was selfish and didn't want to have to put her to sleep. She fell asleep at 5:30 a.m. in my arms and I was just numb. I loved her so much.

I am married to a wonderful man but he just doesn't understand the bond that Dottie and I had.(all of our children are grown and none of them live close to us.) I walked her every day, she went on trips with me, and I don't know what I am going to do without her, she was my constant companion. Sometimes I think I hear her sigh or move around, I have all her things around the house. I got her cremated so I can have her ashes with me where ever I may move to.

I cry because I miss her, I miss the walks, I miss her at night, I miss her at meal times. I Love you Dottie girl.