Beginning to Feel Again

This year I lost 2 grandparents and my father. I quit my job to take care of my father before he died, so I suppose a job as well. My 15 year old daughter, whom I was very close with, moved far away to live with her dad and grandmother. Soon my 16 year old son became abusive, and punched me in the face on several occasions. My fiancee whom I had been with for 5 years, decided to move several states away to Texas 5 months later for a job, when I was unable to go with him as he was living with his sister, and my son is still finishing high school. Shortly after he left, I found out my best friend was stealing from me and I had to end that relationship. In my loneliness and grief, I cheated on my fiance and ended up having to end that relationship. My son still lives with me, but is emotionally abusive. I only really have one friend that I can text when I am down. I don't have any other close friends. I have felt numb and empty for a long time, but the feeling is coming back and all I can do is cry.

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Dec 15, 2013
Beginning to Feel Again
by: Doreen UK

You have had so many losses in your life in such a short time it is no wonder you cry all the time. Just when you are picking yourself up something else goes wrong. There is never ever any justification for being beaten up. Especially from one's own child. Your son is using power because you are powerless to stop him. What you tolerate he will keep doing. STOP HIM NOW. Do not let your son disrespect you in ANY WAY. More so injuring you by grievous bodily harm which is a crime. You need to talk to someone and let them know what is going on. You also need to take CONTROL of your life and your home situation and let your son know you won't tolerate him hitting you or disrespecting you in any way even if this means putting him out of the family home. It sounds cruel to do this. But your son needs a wake up call and a stiff talking to and a MALE to do this. If you don't do something about this now your son will think it is O.K. and will end up with a criminal record. You need to establish healthy boundaries and this means you taking CONTROL of your life and your son. I lost my husband to cancer and with grown up Adult children living their own lives I have no one and feel that life is often not worth living, but I have to live it as best as I can. I wouldn't tolerate an unruly child even just to have someone around in my life. I hope you are able to get this problem sorted out without too much disruption and that you get your life back on track.

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