Today is my Ben's 40th Birthday. It will be three years in June that he passed away. This morning I baked his favorite cake, and even put candles on it. His Dad and I sent up a balloon into the sky, and oh how I hope he caught it. No presents this year for him, only our love and gratitude that we were blessed with this beautiful baby 40 yrs. ago. I yearn for him, and I feel such agony over his loss. I know he's in Heaven; he has sent so many signs. I know I must go on, but days like this are just so so painful. I miss him, and want to hold him in my arms, just as I did that day he was born. We love you and miss you beyond any words.