(Napa, Ca )
My Daddy passed away, April 05, 2012. I was 23 years old, the baby of 4 children & filled the roles that the older siblings should have. The closest sibling in age is my brother who is 2 years older than me. My other siblings are in there late 30's Early 40's !
My life was a mess (or so I thought) around the time of my fathers illness. My two older siblings had nothing to do with my dad & didn't really even speak to him before he passed.
My Aunt decided to "take control" because my father had no assets. To make a long story short , me & my sibling that is 2 years older were there everyday. Made his breakfast, tried playing games, watched TV ect. My father asked my aunt, her husband, my brother & my self to under no circumstances give him a certain pill. Behind our backs it was given to him. He passed a short week and a half later.
Since then , nothing has been right.
I feel so many emotions at once, from being betrayed by my family, to being left on my own to handle the emotional battle of having no father, or stability. I've lost all of my ambition, tenderness, drive , ect .
What do I , do?