by William Matthews
(New Rochelle, New York)
In July we put down our pet Akita Smokey. The same day we sold my childhood home. I have not lived there since 1988. But I still have fond memories. This past February 3, 2013 we lost Dad. He and I were close. He was my hero and role model. Even though I feel both losses I feel relieved. Smokey was suffering and lost his will to live. Dad had a major stroke almost eight years ago. I feel the losses but have been the strong one for my kids, wife and my mom. People commented that I did not show any emotions during the wake and funeral for Dad or when Smokey was put to rest. I am wondering if my greving period had begun or is it still coming. Should I feel guilty for not grieving more. If anyone has suggestion I would like to read it.