Blindsided

Well....our story started over 20 years ago. We dated briefly and then I broke it off. We never saw each other again nor did he try to get back with me. 20 years later....I have since had a child (5 years old unmarried). I am trying to find a way out of this failing relationship now. I had friends who signed me up for Facebook for about a week. During that week I get this email from my ex of 20 years ago saying he would like to say hi!! We connected, we shared our individual situations at the time: he was separated for a couple years and living in TX and I was ending a 3 year relationship with someone I had a child with. We reminisced and started a long distance relationship. I was in Seattle and he was in Dallas. I was struggling financially with a small child and elderly mother. He was in Dallas in a stressful job, wife and feelings for me. We would get together every few months when he would make arrangements for us. He would tell me how he has always loved me and never forgot me even after all these years. He regrets not going after me. He remembered things and had pictures of me that I never knew about. We were in love all over again. 2.5 years later...we are still apart. He has been relocated further away and the stress and distance is stronger. I feel distant all of a sudden. I check the phone bill (in my name) and see that he has been calling someone in FL. I text and ask him. He confirms. I say good-bye...that's it.

My heart hurts so much. Was I nothing to him? He befriended my daughter, mother and me. How could it be so easy to leave???