The breeze is blowing through the pines again and the birds are waking me up. The sky is still dark but dawn is surrounding me. I hope for a smile to cross my face, but the day could quickly turn in the other direction. I wait in my bed peering out the window. Stretching my legs my mind becomes awakened. I hurry into the kitchen and make my coffee. Trying not to sit down for too long I get in the shower and that is when it hits. The pain of losing you is the worst thing that could ever be. My heart gushes and screams your name and my mind relives the memories of you everyday. I stay busy in the mornings. And dare I stay at my house. Grief follows me everywhere but it is easier to hide it in public places. I stay out all day and watch t.v. at night and wait for a morning when I awake with a smile.