by Cindy

Four and a half months and here I am again. Last Sunday at church the sadness hit me hard. My first lite snow with out my soul mate Terry. So I stepped away and into a room with a football game on. That did it I really cried like a baby. My heart feels like it did the night you slipped from my life in my arms. I have been so blue and feel so lost. I find myself on edge and trying so hard to keep a smile on my lips. Yet I feel no joy on the inside. All I want is what I must face life with out my soul mate my love.

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Jan 23, 2013
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry for your loss. My husband passed away on Jan 8 2013, at the age of 28. I'm still at the stage where I can't believe this is happening. I don't like crying around people anymore I rather do it alone. So much sadness for you and I but we had and felt real love not many people do. I'm 29 and feel like the rest of my life is gonna be full of regret and sorrow... I never thought I could cry so much

Jan 21, 2013
my love
by: Anonymous

i lost my steve after 32 years together i cry ever day i am back at work after les then a month but fill like i make everyone i no sad so stay home a lot steve died dce 6 2012 i hope someday to be happy again

Jan 19, 2013
by: silver

first: AMEN Doreen. Blue my soul mate left on May,2011.I miss him all the time.Only my faith in GOD kept me going.HE gives me courage to face each day.I never thought I would be a widow before I was old enough to retire. I look forward to the day when I can see him again.Just this month I am beginning to see light ahead.Celebrate his love and his life. I talk to my husband all the time. I remember his laugh,the jokes he told,and many other things.Be thankful you could hold him. My husband was in an Intensive Care Unit.I only got to see him twice a day.I was blessed that his last 5 minutes were with me laying my head on his shoulder telling him I loved him.Be proud that you had such a love.Not everyone gets that.I sent you love and hugs.May GOD send you the courage and peace to carry on.

Jan 19, 2013
by: Doreen U.K.

Cindy I am sorry for your loss. Don't try to pretend to be HAPPY. Be yourself. We are in such a miserable place with our grief and those who have never had to face this won't understand.
It is such a difficult place to be right now. When we lose ours MATE life will never be the same again. WE just soldier on each day hoping it will get better. I honestly don't know when this will happen. But I do have the Hope that in time we will reach a plateau where we will be comfortable with life again. But never HAPPY as we knew it. Life has changed forever. But we do have to make the best of this life whilst we have it, and not feel guilty for being happy again.

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