Four and a half months and here I am again. Last Sunday at church the sadness hit me hard. My first lite snow with out my soul mate Terry. So I stepped away and into a room with a football game on. That did it I really cried like a baby. My heart feels like it did the night you slipped from my life in my arms. I have been so blue and feel so lost. I find myself on edge and trying so hard to keep a smile on my lips. Yet I feel no joy on the inside. All I want is what I must face life with out my soul mate my love.