(Fairview, alberta, canada)
One day I was playing world of warcraft when my mother was getting angry at my brother for a bad math test mark. He was in a hurry to get to volley-ball practice, so she told him if he didn't get his marks up then it would be his last practice he would go to. She yelled at me to go with him, so I hopped on my dirt bike to avoid getting yelled at. It was barely sprinkling rain and I seen my brother pull out of the drive way so I rode over there. He said "Are you sure you don't wanna come?" I said "Nooo that's your friends. I have my own practises to go to, and don't be sad about mom she's just stressed." we then drove off in different directions and so forth. I went into the house after a good half hour, because it was raining a bit to much. My mom told me my brother had collapsed and it seemed like it wasn't a big deal. I waited thinking "Oh my god, what did he do this time? Run into a wall?" as I played on the computer. A hour went by So I called my mom. I never heard her so scared, she told me that he may not make it. I started tearing up and asking what happened. His friends said he collapsed and stopped breathing. He had a cardiac arrest, and the worst part is that the ADD was sitting right beside him. They didn't use it. Ever since that night, it changed me. Watching the doctors and nurses working on my brother, me praying and crying that he was going to live. Seeing his bright body turn into a grey lifeless shell, and his warm skin turning cold as death itself. I was lost, losing my older brother was a mind blow.. As his younger brother I didn't know how to take it, how was I the man on the family now? All these awnsers went thru me. Then one night I layed there and cried my self to sleep like usual. Then I had the most beautiful realistic dream ever. I was in a bright white room that went on forever. Then A bright object was behind me, and it was my brother... I told him I missed him and if he was ok, he said with great truth and very calm "Everything is perfect. He told me to tell my mom to not worry about getting angry at him, and told me that he was in a better place. I hugged him for as long as I could asking if there was a heaven. I miss Brock all the time. He was my best friend and was a big part of me. Im lost without him, But we all got to wake up some time...