My husband of 13 years and I had/have a remarkable marriage. Very loving, very trusting, very respectful, very passionate. We had it ALL. I just discovered a post that he posted as a boudoir photographer looking for models. Several women replied and there was a short response to/from each that started getting sexual...like cybor sex. He stopped it on his own and I didn't discover it until it was done and over for two months. But I feel DEVASTATED! I can't get the words he wrote to them out of my head or the visions of the pictures they sent to him. It wakes me in the night and it's the first thing on my mind when I wake. I know he loves me and I him. I want to believe this will never happen again and deep down, I do believe that. But what I need help with is how do I regain my trust without doubts flooding in and how do I regain my own self worth? He damaged us with this....and he damaged me. Now I'm left feeling old and ugly. We're in our early 40's....hardly old, but not some 20 year old hottie either. Just seeking words of encouragement from anyone who may have a similar experience. God has been so good in the past few days in healing my heart and repairing our relationship, but these things continue to linger. I guess mostly I needed a place to 'talk.' This is hardly the thing to take to family and friends. Thanks for 'listening.'