On February 18, 2012...I lost my son Curtis to a blood clot that traveled to his heart. He was 33 years old and my only child. Two weeks later after I buried my son my mother passed on March 9, 2012. I have lost my 2 best friends. I feel that I'm living in a fog on some other planet and I can't wake up. I go through each day pretending everything will be alright but my life will "never' be the same. My mother had been sick with Lupus for several years but the loss of her grandson was too much. I'm devastated and even though I believe in God I feel that Curtis was so cheated in life. He was engaged to get married next year. And he deserved a wife a children...why was I left here it's so unfair. I know my friends & family mean well but the loss of my son and mother back to back is just a little too mcuh!!! I cry every day...I was buying a house now I don't want one, I don't want to work. I feel guilty about doing simply things as "eating". I'm trying to do normal things but nothing is normal anymore. I know that they are in heaven...but I'm missing them so much.