by Johnna Rowland
I am a mother of a 2 year old and 5 year old girls I got pregnant last year and miscarried at 3 months in December! Soon after February 2011 I found out I was pregnant I had an awesome pregancy everything about it I enjoyed more so that our baby being my first boy! I had an easy fast labor and gave birth to a healthy baby boy 7lbs 12oz!!! My son was an anazibg sleeper, he hardly ate and cried only when i changed his diaper but other than that he slept alot,We got discharged and went hm first weeks check up they noticed he lost weight but everything sounded good and looked good! Doctor asked me to come back next week to see baby following week he lost more weight I heard it was normal but she recommended me breastfeeding and formula feeding he was doing amazing the day after thanksgiving I noticed him sleeping all day and at night he started to bleed out from his belly button! I noticed he looked very Lathargic and out of it but he was wide awake!!! Anyways they had a hard time drawing blood because it was clotting up, they took X-rays and found that he had an acid substance in his stomach and was trying to flush it out with antibiotics that morning Saturday his kidneys started to fail and he went to go be with The Lord when I saw him he looked so swollen and unnoticeable he was all puffy and bloody!!! We decided to do an autopsy because for the future we can prevent this from happening to any of our other kids! It has been a week but it feels like forever I miss him! We had his funeral had a wonderful turn out. My daughters are taking it very hard as well as me and my boyfriend! We just feel like it is a real bad nightmare! God is the one that is making us stronger and strengthening out relationship we want to have another baby already but I still am bleeding from giving birth! I talk to him everyday he is in a better place and I trust that we will heal but right now it just feels like it is all a dream having had him and now him not being here!