Can I finally grieve?
How do we handle multiple deaths in the family? I have been trying to figure that out since this time last year. Let me tell a little about this. I was my mother's caregiver for the past nine years. During this time I was battling cancer. My mom's beloved poodle that was fourteen years old got cancer last year and had to be put to sleep, there is the first tragedy. My mother fell a week later and was taken to a hospital. One week later she had pheumonia. I took her to a different hospital and she was admitted. She remained there until January 13th,2013. They informed me there was nothing more they could do,her heart and lungs were failing and sent her home with no more than six months to live. I found her dead on the 16th at 5am. Three weeks later my brother-in-law hurt his shoulder and was hospitalized. While treating that he was diagnosed with last stage leukimea. Three weeks later he died. Within twelve weeks from that we had a cousin lose his only known dad and another of our pets. I am just now getting over the mad stage and starting to feel guilty about my mom. I wish I could just cry it all out but that hurts. I have lung problems and only my son to talk to. What can I expect to still come? I been drinking my thoughts and pain away.