by Sherry
(Boyd tx)

Sept 19, 2013 the diagnosis told to us was its terminal non small cell lung cancer. Mom quit smoking 20 yrs ago. She survived valve replacement 2 days we're home she has To go in doran extensive mammogram with stitches from heart surgery. A lot of praying then 2 more stints are put in for artery blockage then colon cancer then major stroke. She always went for check ups why didnt dr order chest X-ray he was treating bronchitis cgf but no X-ray was done til her clavical bone shattered while sleeping so stage 4 nsclc with bone mestasis she fought for 10 months. I moved in with her to care for her. Cancer is evil I watched her gasp for air thought chemo would be the death of her but chemo failed her she passed 6-26-2014 at 3:13 am it's been a week it's still doesn't give me comfort. She's not here now I miss her terribly. Idi s myself yelling "mom I'm home" when I come home from work The anger towards the people who take their moms for granted. I cherished every moment by recording or writing in my journal. I feel empty and numb. What is normal now it's not ever gonna be the same. Her spicy attitude ill miss her spirit people don't understand I'm angry sad empty inside how to move forward is unimaginable right now

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Jul 12, 2014
Hardest thing I ever had to endure
by: Agggie

I lost my best friend to a massive stroke over three months ago and still want to pick up the phone to tell her about something funny my kids did or something that happened at work. It truly comes down to "one day at a time". Bottom line this sucks. I had spoken with her the night before we lost her and everything was so normal. And the next day she just never woke up and was taken from us so suddenly. I pray that one day I will be able to smile when I think of her. The pain is just unbearable some days.

Jul 11, 2014
by: Stephanie

Sherry-I am so sorry for your loss. My mother passed in March of Metastatic Melanoma to lungs and brain. She was only diagnosed in Jan. Watching your mother pass this way is a traumatic experience. It has been almost 4 months and I still feel quite numb. I think this kind of loss does change a person forever-in good ways and bad. They say-you never know how strong you are....until you have no choice- and this is true. I miss my mom everyday but you get up-brush your teeth and get through. Lean on friends and family-they are the key to remebering the great times with your mom. And lately-a few times now-when I think of my mom I smile instead of tearing up. Baby steps. Everyone grieves differently. I wish you some comfort and strength.

Jul 07, 2014
by: Doreen UK

Sherry I am sorry for your loss of your mom to cancer. I understand how you feel. I lost my husband of 44yrs. to lung cancer 2yrs. ago. His cancer was caused by working with a substance called asbestos in the workplace. Once cut the fibres lodge in the lining of the lung and takes 40-60yrs. to develop. My husband was spot on for 40yrs. There is no Xray that can detect lung cancer till too late. It will show up as shadows on the lung when nothing can be done. The suffering is so severe. My husband could not breath. Had to have oxygen and was vomiting blood all the time. He died in severe cancer pain. I miss him so much. I could not function for 6 months. I did nothing but let TV comfort me. I found the best way forward was by TAKING ONE DAY AT A TIME. It is early days and you will feel the worst ever pain and heartache for weeks. But each day you will heal and move forward. The healing is slow. Try and get family support and from friends as this does help. But you are right. Cancer is a scourge of a disease. Claiming far too many lives every day.

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