Cannot accept it
(New York, NY, US)
It hasn't even been a year yet since I lost my mom. I'm going through the usual: grief, depression, anger, detachment..most recently I can't seem to focus on anything anymore...it's so hard to focus in class and takes so long to so homework.
But my issue is that I can't and don't want to accept that she's gone. I feel like I'm living in a reality where she's supposed to be alive..but she's not..everything feels pointless. Because I don't want to live in this reality without her. I see so little point to school, work, friendships,... everything.
How long until I will start accepting it? Do I have to willingly accept it or will it come with time?