My strong 30 year old son went to sleep driving home from work and wrecked just a couple hundred yards from his home. He was going home to his wife and 4 year old daughter and 2 year old son. We live 15 minutes from his house. He was a delight from the day he was born. He never drank or did drugs. He always set goals and achieved them. He was very laid back and did not take life too serious. But he worked hard and played hard. Everyone wanted to be around him--because he lit up the room and could talk to anybody.
He said a few words in the Er to his wife-then his heart stopped and they had to shock him back. I was still believing he would be alright. He was transported to a trauma center and never woke up. For 5 days we listened to different reports from the dr. and it was all so negative. On the 5th day the doctor said the wordS HE IS GONE. I asked few questions which is not my normal way. I was tired and just accepted what the doctors said. Now 6 months later I want his medical records that only his wife can get and she is reluctant. The only reason I think I want them is I want to know that I did everything I was supposed to do as a mother. My husband says to forget about the doctors cause it won't bring him back. But a mother's job is to protect their child and I feel like I let him down.
I am so angry most days-mainly at GOD and people that do not even try to understand.I am a Christian and I just cannot deal with his death. We see our grandchildren twice a week and they are so beautiful but the 4 yr. old is suffering and that is more than I can bear. She wants her Daddy back. I feel totally alone even surrounded by family. I just want to be with my son but I would never consider taking my life. I just want my son.