Cant cope with the environment with out my father.
I am from India.
Recently my father died of Brain stroke, Heart fail and Cancer. I and my family consoled our selves when he affected with stroke paralysis as he will be recovered after three months any way... the reason we think in that way because, my father from past child hood was a tension and anxiety person, cant control his emotions.
So, I prepare my self to take care of him personally mean while attending to the job for three months.
But suddenly, he got stomach pain and when tested report came out, it was revealed that he was developed with pancreatic cancer which was in metastasis state means advance state which nothing will cure him.
From that time onward in the hospital I cant think properly by knowing that my father will expire soon.
He experienced a hell in the bed as he already affected with stroke, he cant able to walk or eat. He simply like a baby to take care of and nothing else because he cant able to speak also...
When my father experiencing that kind of hell and was treated like a baby.. that time.. I got realization that all his anxiety and tension is due to his child mentality. He cant able to control emotions because he is a adult child having children...
I didnt understand my father when he was alive.. I didnt console him when he felt sad... I made a big mistake.. I wanted to console him and wanted to be with him.. which cant be possible..
I miss you my dad... i am sorry....