Cant get over my moms death
i dont know where to begin in 2013 28 Feburary i lost my guardian angel my mom. she was very sick she was hospitalized for month in hospital. she had complete heart block, diabetic and renal failure which resulted into kidney failure .the thing is she was very very strong and even when she went for the operation she would say my children am coming back just now thats what kept us going for the month that she was in hospital.my mom she was our sole provider she would make sure we had every thing she was our friend our teacher our pillar of strength she was really a remarkable women so sometime i feel betrayed by her death i feel alone, lost, out of control of some sort i need help to over come this anger that i carry in my heart..i miss her a lot..even in my dreams i keep on apologizing her that "m sorry i couldn't helped her to survive"...no one can takes her place in my life...m nothing without her...i want to touch her feel her...m just unable to think anything positive about my future without her...her last words always knocks my mind she wanted to live for me and my sister..but god snatched her..v r just orphan without her ...i donot know to whom i ask for help and whether i would ever able to forget those scenes in hospital...but i need help..
i love you mummy...