Cant Let Go
So I'm dealing with pain I've never had to deal with before. Edmund was not my spouse,and I wasnt sure if he was my true love,the one I'd eventually get married to,but we were getting there. Then they took him. I'm not sure who they is, but I want him back. I have been suicidal, I have blocked it out, I have tried everything. I can not can not let go. Just cant. Its been a year and 9 months and I have been stuck in this dark place for long. I can not deal with the constant reminders you know? Funny enough the night he died, I loved him more than I ever had. We had just sorted out a problem and I was sure I loved him more than ever. And he died 6 hours later. And his friend lived. His friend who was driving lived. I have never felt so cheated before. Its not fair. It is so so not fair.