Just now I have accidently come across this site.
Read a few stories been reduced to tears as is usual every day.
Here though I can see that others also feel the pain of their losses.
I am waiting to have bereavement therapy at present.
My most beloved father left us one year ago on 2nd March.
I was with him he was 89,he died of pneumonia.
I spent two days and nights talking to him whilst he was dying in his own bed at home.
Those moments I treasure forever and all of the most wonderful experiences spent with him.
The problem is one year later the hurt is still so raw I still cry nearly every day and feel quite obsessed with my father as he brought me up, he was also my mother
Many unhidden under handed events unfolded after his death which ended up that I was having frequent panic attacks.
Even now I cannot rest and don't feel that my dad can either because of the betrayal done to him whilst he was ill.
I love him so much I do feel I have a broken heart.
Well this is just a little part of how I feel so raw and very delicate.
Thank you for reading my story.