Christine

by Christine Dillman
(Altoona, Pa USA)

My son, Eddie died on June 2,2011, He was out of town with a girl he was seeing and I was told he died of a Pulmonary Embolism, but there were other complications. He was an uncontrolled diabetic. Had suffered an injury to his rib 5 days before he died and was in a lot of pain. Was to ER and told to follow up with family doctor the next day, Instead of keeping appt., he went to see the girlfriend, who is a heroin addict. He was trying to help her and she txt him to come over. He had thrown her out two weeks before this and hadn't seen her. He should have stayed here and gone to Dr. There are so many unanswered questions and I was handling it all pretty well until about 2 weeks ago. Now, I feel this unbearable sadness and some anger and guilt! I feel like I can't show how I really feel, cause it's been 10 weeks and I should be better! He was such an important part of my life! I have become bitchy, mean and want to just be alone to think!