Went to my sister for Christmas dinner. What a mess, everyone made a point of not mentioning Bruce at all. I exploded and yelled at them that his name is Bruce and had a complete meltdown. I was told I had ruined Christmas, well I don't care they all had their spouses with them. Next year I will make a point of not being here for Christmas. I will be avoiding the family for the next few weeks. I wish this season was over.
It has just been over a month since Bruce died and I feel I am no better than when he died. I did not choose this life of pain and loneliness and I am sorry if you feel uncomfortable with my feelings, try being on this side of the fence.