Cody Lee Cole born June 9, 1982 died May 21 ,2010
by Brenda Mack
(Coppera Cove, Texas)
Cody taken Feb 2010
Cody was my baby. My only son and the second child that I have buried. His sister Randie died when she was just into her second day of life. It took me many years to get over the loss of her. I am not sure that I will ever be the same after losing Cody.
He was born premature as was Randie, but Cody had more fight in him and it seemed that his short life would be nothing but a struggle. But despite his struggles with illness he was funny and always could make you laugh. One of my friends told me she expected to see him on late night tv. He was such a clown.
He was sensitive and could talk to me about anything. Just a few months before his death he told me that he considered me his best friend. He truly was his mamas' boy. He always told me he loved me every time we spoke. But he suffered so. As a small child he suffered with asthma and was always so skinny. He was teased and made fun of but he keep his spirits up. Then in his teens he found out he was diabetic. He hated to prick his fingers and take shots and he never did take care of himself and eat right.
It was during this time in his life that he had to come to terms with the fact that he was gay. We lived in a small country town where that was just not accepted. Cody ran away from home and got involved in drugs but through it all he still seemed to remain the life of the party.
The next ten years were very hard for my son. He even lived on the streets for awhile. Sometimes the only time he knew for sure that he would have food was when he went into the hospital, which he did often. Then he found out that he was HIV positive. It was always my fear that he would get Aids after I knew he was gay. But I knew that his uncontrolled blood sugar would get him long before Aids could.
My poor baby just did not want to grow up; he wanted to eat what he wanted and drink what he wanted. He was my Lost Boy and I loved him with all my heart, and am so glad that I was with him just 2 days before he died. He teased me about buying a marble angel for his grave when he died.
We both knew that I would bury him but we thought that would be years down the road. I just never dreamed it would be in less than 2 days. Right now we do not know for sure what killed him but the EMT said his sugar was extremely high. We are waiting on the medical examiners report. He was a beautiful boy and I say boy because a part of him refused to grow up.
The people that did love him, loved him dearly. Mamas are not supposed to bury their babies and giving up one as special as Cody is the hardest thing I have ever done. Mama loves you Cody and I always will. I will see you soon baby.