Cody was only 21

by Steffy
(Phoenix, az )

Codys life was taken from him at age 21, He had a whole entire life to look forward too.

Its been a month now since he was shot and killed by Buckeye Police and I can still not wrap my head around the fact that I will never see him again.

Cody was my everything, we had been together for 4 years and married for 9 months - Newly weds we were happy.

Expecting our first child who will be here next month.

Its not fair that cody will not get to experience being a father, that he will not get to do everything he wanted to in the future. Why did god take away such an important person to me.

Cody and I had a bond, He was my best friend, my companion, my husband- my everything, My soul mate. I knew I wanted to be with Cody from the moment I met him, He completed me.

Now I am Alone and Pregnant and devastated with out him, we had planned our lives together and now I have to start over without him.

I didnt know pain until Cody died, I lost my happiness my inspiration. I wish I could die, kill myself and never have to feel this pain but I have to live for my baby.

He left me a great gift a baby boy who I cant wait to have in my arms, I know he will not be able to replace cody but I know that when I look in my babies eyes I will see Cody.

Im so torn inside, I find myself screaming and crying all day, life with out cody is not the same, I was talking to my dad and he said " when you and Cody were married he was happy" WHEN WE WERE MARRIED I cant stand the sound of that, I didnt leave Cody, I didnt divorse him, he is my husband, I love him I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life.

I am 20 years old and have lost the most important person to me, Cody and I use to get judged alot, how can you be so in love and be so young, are you sure you want to get married.. blah blah blah.

Cody and I were always sure. we were meant to be. we were happy. We bought our first house Jan 2011 and we married April 2011 we spent our honeymoon in paris, germany and london found out I was pregnant in July 2011.

we had everything we needed being so young all the future ahead of us, Now its all gone, burried with him all my dreams.

I miss you Cody, I miss holding you, I miss kissing you. I miss all our laughs and happy moments. I miss laying on your chest at night, waking up next to you. I dont understand how this could have happened, I dont understand why god didnt protect you. I promise you baby that there will be justice out there for you. People will know that you were a good man, a Happy man who was excited to have his frist child. I miss your voice Cody I love you and dont know how to handle all this pain. Please cody find me in dreamland so that we can be together.

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