Coming Up on My Mother's Two Year Death Anniversary!

by Ilana

My mother passed away from ovarian cancer on May 2, 2010. I can't believe its almost two years now and I still can't get over hear death. My Dad and brother have been able to move on with this lives, but I am still grieving. Yes, I am seeing a grief counselor, which helps, but the pain is still there. What makes this difficult for me is that my mom is buried out of state and I can't make the trip to visit her grave. In my heart, I know she won't even know I'm there, but I still feel guilty. I decided to go to work on May 2, because I'm afraid if I stay home, I will feel sorry for myself. If I'm at work, at least I will be focused on something else and be able to forget what day this is. I know my mother would want me to move on with my life, but sometimes that is easier said that done. How can I move on with my life, when the person I loved the most and counted on, is gone? Sure we fought alot and basically couldn't be in the same room with each other without having a disagreement, but she was still my mother and I loved her! How do you commemorate a day that brought so much grief into my life?

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Sep 21, 2014
I Miss you My Mom's
by: Naresh Bag

5th nniversary of
my mom's death

Apr 28, 2014
Third anniversary of my mom's death
by: Jacques Pesienji

On this very date of April 28 , 2011 my mother passed away after close to 17 years of illness. I cannot believe its been three years already. The pain and grief are still there and will be there forever.We gave our all to make her live for some few more years but death was stonger. I pray for her to be safe where she is and to keep an eye on us. We miss you mom

Jun 11, 2013
You'll move on!!
by: Jane C.

Hello, my mother died when I was 7 years old, now im 25 and still cant get over it. I cry almost everyday, i remember her and her cooking and her way of taking care of me. The pain is always there, but its a hidden pain, my mother was buried in another country, I think I've only visited her once or twice in 17 years. But don't let that beat you up. You'll move on, its a matter of time, you know what they say: Time Heals everything, not completely, remember when you get a big cut, it heals but the scar stays there, this is the same. So you'll move on,but you wont forget, and thats a good thing.

May 03, 2013
Thanks for the Comments!
by: Ilana

Yesterday was Mom's death anniversary and I seemed to handle it well. As well as can be expected. I went to work, which helped keep my mind distracted. If I stayed home, I probably would have cried.

May 02, 2013
2 Years May 3
by: Anonymous

My Mom passed away suddenly on May 3 2011. She was never sick a day in her life and she died of a massive heart attach. Not a day, minute or second goes by that I don't think about her. I miss her so much. My Dad passed away this year in January. When my Mom passed away a large part of him went as well. He missed her so much. The only comfort is that they are both together again now.

Apr 24, 2013
Third Anniversary Coming Up
by: Ilana

I can't believe my mom's death anniversary is next week. I decided to work so she's not on my mind as much, even though I know she will definitely be on my mind. It's been three years. I'm doing better, but there is that major event or anniversary where I will be sad. My Dad doesn't seem to have any trouble missing my mom, which bother's me.

Apr 24, 2013
by: Anonymous

I lost my beautiful, caring, loving Mother 2 years ago and it has killed my heart so deeply!! I have been thru hell since the day she passed and it still continues to this day!! I will never let her go!!! She is still my life!!.....I will not go to the cemetary EVER!!

Oct 29, 2012
May God console you
by: Anonymous

Losing a mother as a child is the greatest loss one can bear in life. I was even unable to talk about it for 7 years straight. I tried suicide thinking that life without her is empty. But in time I had returned to myself and saw around me. There they are the rest of my family and there will be a new family that I will be fully responsible. She was always busy on her children and husband matters than her own issues. She lived for her family. I learned after long time that what she always desire was my happiness and wellbeing in all matters. I should promise to her to make her dream come true though she is gone and today October 29 is her 16th years annivarsary. I am now a father of one daughter with a beautiful wife and I constantly create happy days with my father, brother and sister together with my children and little princes. Half of my family is dispersed outside of their home land. Today I forgot the date surprisingly and my sister from London called and reminded me the date. Who believes this knowing my depth of sorrow? I tell you dear that time will hill your wound but don't wait for that, yes cry as much as possible. Tears wash your sorrow. But live strong and rejoice for you have the rest of your family. The unbearable loss enlighten the rejoice you should have with the rest of the family you have. May God console you and be always the happiness for the rest of your family and circle.

Jul 26, 2012

by: Anonymous

i know what your going threw.... my mother died on September 27, 2010 she had colon cancer. I was just 15 years old. i'm now 17 and i can't get over that day she left. When that day comes around or her birthday i just stay in my room and cry all day.. it happens that i can't get that day out of my head i remember every detail. there's a part of me that messing but i know she's by my side everyday no matter what...

May 14, 2012
Don't give up
by: Anonymous

Its only been almost a year since my mom passed and I still grieve like it just happened. There will always be that hole in your heart and that empty space. It is rough but our mothers raised us to be strong and to live life to the fullest. As hard as it is to keep on going without them, there will always be a piece of them in you. It is hard when you realize that your still as sad as you were when it happened but I'm starting to realize that is normal. Grief is natural and still so painful at the same time.

May 10, 2012
Right there with you
by: Anonymous

My mom also died from ovarian cancer June 12, 2010, she was only 45. She fought the cancer for 17 years since I was 5 when she was orginally dignosed. It's almost been two years and I still go to call her to ask her for advice. She was my best friend. I agree they all say it gets easier but it really doesn't and I don't think that people can really understand! I still grieve like it was yesterday. I agree I know she is no longer in pain and in a better place, but there is some part of me that wants to be selfish and have her here with me. I'm glad I read your story, sorry for your loss but atleast I know that I'm not the only one that can't seem to move on with their life.

May 01, 2012
me too
by: Anonymous

I am also in the final process of cleaning out the family home as I just sold it. I felt like i was invading her privacy by going through all her things. I just hate it all. My mother did not want to ever sell her house and i just sold it. One other thing to add to my very long list of things to feel so guilty about. I wish I had died with her because i just miss her more than words can describe i know it has only been one year but it gets harder and not easier

May 01, 2012
I am so there!
by: Diaine

I lost my mum so suddenly, mum would be 70 on the 4th of October and the 6th of October will be the 4th anniversary of her death. I am still there with so m£any other things goping on but I can't believe the time that has passed and my mum is not here. It does frighten me that I must not be coping but it is very private and personal to me - on the outside I just get on!

Apr 30, 2012
i feel for you
by: Anonymous

My mother's first year anniversary was April 7, 2012. She also died of ovarian cancer 13 days after her death. I hibernated on that day and just screamed and cryed I am having a very difficult time going on am on anxiety medications and antidepressants me who never even took asprin.....I am still in shock I am an only child and unmarried my father also died 9 years ago of cancer how do i go on when 2/3 s of my family is dead. Just try to do the best you can to survive the day. I am finding this even harder than the first year

Apr 30, 2012
Lost my mom too
by: Anonymous

I lost my mother to ovarian cancer, Jan 2011. I can't tell that it is any easier, especially since I have been cleaaning out her house and now I'm on the last part, the pictures. I feel as though I cry more than than when I first got the news and when she died a few weeks after. I don't think I want to let go and the grief holds her closer to me.

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