Coming Up on My Mother's Two Year Death Anniversary!
My mother passed away from ovarian cancer on May 2, 2010. I can't believe its almost two years now and I still can't get over hear death. My Dad and brother have been able to move on with this lives, but I am still grieving. Yes, I am seeing a grief counselor, which helps, but the pain is still there. What makes this difficult for me is that my mom is buried out of state and I can't make the trip to visit her grave. In my heart, I know she won't even know I'm there, but I still feel guilty. I decided to go to work on May 2, because I'm afraid if I stay home, I will feel sorry for myself. If I'm at work, at least I will be focused on something else and be able to forget what day this is. I know my mother would want me to move on with my life, but sometimes that is easier said that done. How can I move on with my life, when the person I loved the most and counted on, is gone? Sure we fought alot and basically couldn't be in the same room with each other without having a disagreement, but she was still my mother and I loved her! How do you commemorate a day that brought so much grief into my life?