Confused and lonely
I have been with my boyfriend for coming up to 5 yrs, about 2 yrs ago we went through alot he cheated on me , his family was trying to break us up and the fact that he lives in another state had taken its toll and we ended up both cheating. Now its been almost 2 yrs since that i decided after about 6 months of being apart i would give him another chance. 5 days ago i find out he cheated on me a few weeks after we got back together and the girl ended up getting pregnant and now has a 8 month old son to him. At the moment his family is trying to get him to do a dna test, he wont do it and wants nothing to do with the other girl or the baby he didnt even know that she was pregnant until his mother told him the other girl had a baby. This has all been so overwhelming as i cant get pregnant and all i have wanted is to be able to give him a child, we were also planning on getting married and moving in together. My life feels completely destroyed. I am trying to find the courage to leave the relationship which i know has no future at all, if anyone has been through something similar could you please give me some advice. I Have loved this man for 5 years and was planning on spending the rest of my life with him and now i need to some how let him go.