Could there be more?
Within a 13 month time span ending in May 2012 I have delt with more loss than I can handle. This is how it all went for me.
My beloved dog of 16 years had a stroke while I was at work and I had to have put him down. Two months to the day later I lost my angle (rescue) dog to cancer. Nearly two months to the day after that my father passed away from heart failure. I was laid off from my job in November and found I was pregnant after years of trying. Found an new job all was looking a little better and I lost my baby at 4 months (finding out it was a little boy) as well as my boyfriend of 7 years the same day. April, 6 days before the year mark of my fathers death my mother died unexpectedly. While planning her funeral my last beloved baby boy of 16 years got very sick finding out he had cancer. Two weeks after my mothers service I had to put my baby boy down.
I am just now starting to feel the pain of all this loss and I have no idea how to process it all. I feel if I grieve one I am not being fair to another. I will never get past the shocking and sudden death of my mother because I was the last person she spoke with the evening she passed away.
I am lost, sick, angry, depressed I get panic attacks and feel a knot in my stomach every minute of the day that I am awake.
This is not normal, losing everything in your life that you hold dear to you in 13 months. How does this happen?