Courtney Alan Phelps 10/14/1982 to 6/27/2008
(Anaconda, Montana, USA)
To my wonderful son, Courtney.
You were my second son, but not second in my heart. You were so kind and gentle and full of love. You had so much life to look forward to. I will never see your children.
You were born in Reno, Nevada. You were such a beautiful toddler. Blonde with blue eyes. You ended up being over 6' tall and so slender. The girls always loved you.
I miss you so much. I wonder how I will go on without you. My heart hurts. My arms miss hugging you. I miss your smell and the sound of your voice. I miss everything about you.
My son suffered from seizures caused by a beating he received from the police. He had them for about 2 years before he died. The medications he was given made him angry and tired. He had daily migraine headaches.
He had to move home and quit college. He could no longer drive. His life was miserable since the beating. The day he died he was taking a bath in our whirlpool tub when he had a seizure and drowned. His younger brother (just 16 at the time) found him. I was not at home at the time and they took his body away before I got home. I never got to say goodbye.
We got attorneys to hold the officer involved in the beating liable, but the jury sided with the officer. They vilified my son in court because he had a DUI and had smoked a little pot in the months before the injury. We live in a really conservative state and I believe that is why they sided with the officer.
I spent the last year in a deep depression. I had all the signs. I am still in a depression but am learning how to get through each day.
Courtney, you were my sunshine. You were such a good son and I was proud of you. You always took the side of the underdog and protected those smaller than you. You had a big heart and the world is missing out on the gifts you had to offer. I am so sorry for that. I will miss you for the rest of my life. Life changed on June 27.
I miss and love you so much it hurts.