Dad gone .................
It has been 5 months that dad has died. Everything happened in a sudden. He was pretty healthy (at least no sign) and he got a sudden stroke on 2 Mar morning and passed away in the evening. The pain and the shock is still so clear to my family, esp my mum. He was only 67. We were very poor when we was a kid. HE and my mum tried all the best to raise us up. He retired 10 years ago and had a simple happy and worry free life with my mum in the past 10 years.
Mum relied on him very much and she is only 53 now. The funeral was done in a peaceful way. Our emotions seems under control in the past 2 weeks. Mum can go to the fresh market alone in the day time, but she refuses to talk other except us. She refuses to take the daily bus which she used to take with dad together. All is understandable.
We collapsed tonight again. We all missed dad so much and the fact is that we can't see him, hug him, kiss him anymore.
At the bottom of my heart, i know that time will heals our pain, but not our memories of dad. Right now, it's really difficult to go through the grief stages, esp mum. she must feel 1000 times terrible than us.......She doesn't need to work... at least we can dilute our attention when working in the daytime.
How can we go through this??? Why time passes so slow????