dad i am so sorry
I am so sorry for me being me. I know how hard you tried to make my life so easy. I always could fall back on you, and you don't know how much I appreciated you. You didn't spoil me, you taught me so much. My work ethic is on account of you. I love the way I love because of you. I spoil those that I love because of you. And I never told you how much I cared.
I know how happy you were for us until you realized he was more like you than I was. And when he went away I know how hurt you were because I was hurting the same way. The difference was you were hurting for us both and I was too angry to see past myself. I am so sorry for the fights we had, the painful hateful things we said to each other. I am sorry for expecting and not accepting. I am sorry that I couldn't see past our differences and see you were sick, dying and in pain. I am so sorry I did not tell you I loved you the day you died. Dad I am sorry. I miss you so much. I love you. And we all miss you