Dad lost in an accident
by Karen Sayers
(Palominas, AZ, USA)
I lost my father on April 25th of this year. He was in a car accident and did not survive. The accident was his fault, although we still don't have an accident report to know all the details. Thankfully, nobody else was injured.
I am sitting here today, crying. I thought the crying would be over by now! It has been almost 3 months and my husband and children keep asking me, "What's wrong?" I want to scream at them! Don't they know? My husband wants to know what we can do to get me out of this "funk".
I have been very fortunate in my life. I have not lost anyone close to me until this. I was really not prepared. I felt prepared to graduate college, get married, have a job, have children.... Even though those things were hard, I had seen people do those things and felt I knew what to do, too. I wasn't ready for this.
I have felt so alone even though I have a sister and a brother who are here for me and going through this too. I want to talk about it constantly because it is on my mind all the time, yet I can tell friends, and even some of my family, are ready for me to move on. I can almost see the eye-roll through the phone when I bring it up in conversations.
I have my sister and my mom (parents have been divorced for over 20 years) and they are a tremendous help. I am thankful for them. I am thankful that I came across this website. I enjoyed reading through some of it and realizing that many of my feelings are "normal" and that I am progressing.