i lost my dad one month ago and one day. I hadn't seen him in days and our last conversation was when he saw me so sad and we were talking about marriage and stuff. I wish i spent more time with him. He passed away unexpectedly at age 64 from two heart attacks out of nowhere. I try to be strong for my mom, brother, and son and trying so hard not to cry but sometimes tears come out. I wish there was some way he could come back for a day..but that is not possible till one day. Such a weird feeling not to have someone around. I know he is gone but sometimes it seems so surreal. Now, i have dreams of him coming to me distraught which I don't understand why. But, prayers help alot!
Surreal isn't the word for it. To see our loved one laying so still with no life left in them is more than the human soul can bear. My husband lay there so still.........all the color gone from his handsome face. His soul was gone. I was so lost. My son, daughter and I just looked at each other and didn't know what to do. We had to leave his body there to be transported to the funeral home. We would never hear his laugh again or feel the touch of his hand. It's only when we start believing that our loved one is truly in a better place, waiting until we are all reunited again, that we are able to go on. Your father would want you to live your life to it's fullest. Make him proud. Be a huge support for your mother. If she is grieving like I am she will need all the love and support she can get. It's OK to miss your dad and even feel a little sorry for yourself. You grieve because you loved him so much. It's a huge void in your life. He smiles down on you daily and will protect you for the rest of your life. God's blessings to you and your family.
