Daddy's girl

My dad passed on Jan 6th 2011, he was 60. He went into the hospital w/ dehydration and was told maybe the gallbladder, and never returned home. It ruptured and he died from the poison. This is the same man who survived three heart attacks, months even years of rehab after a head on collision crushing him from waist down, ultimately loss a leg, diabetes due to trauma, and many many more hospital stays far more serious than a gallbladder.

He was laughing and talking at 8:30 pm on wed night in a reg room and dead by 12noon Thursday in icu. What in the world! Why do I feel like I'm going to die myself? When will the pain ease? When will the tears slow? Please tell what this is wrapped around my chest and head? I believe in God and heaven but have never known pain like this!