Daddy's gone

by Pam kennedy
(Morton mississippi)

In feb of 2012 dad suffered a stroke that left him with a left side deficit he did therapy and was recovering well then April 1,2014 he had a massive stroke and although he was fully aware he was unable to Speak eat or since we began total care. At this time we were slapped with the dreaded cancer diagnosis. Liver cancer. After three mths in rehab dad started going down we took him to hospital and found the cancer had spread to lungs and metastasized we were devastated that was two and a half weeks ago we moved him to hospice on a Tuesday and my daddy was gone Thursday two weeks ago today
I feel like my heart has been ripped out my dad and mom were my heart we were extremely close I feel like I'm walking through a fog nothing makes sense. I can't breathe can't eat can't sleep don't want to even get up and get dressed. My friends who mean well say you will be ok it takes time don't be sad UR dad wouldn't want you to be yes yes yes I hear you but right now right this minute right this second I'm NOT ok I AM sad and I miss him terribly. I long to hear his voice see his smile and feel his arms around me saying it's ok baby girl . I know he is not suffering but I am I know he is not in pain but I am I know he is whole but I'm not.

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Jul 28, 2014
I completely understand
by: Jae

My father suffered his third stoke in 2011, which left him paralyzed . He passed away July 2 , 2014 at 9:34 am. For two years my father was not able to walk, talk, and eat. He recognized us when we walked in and just looked . In the beginning he would smile but that soon stopped. I'm pretty sure my dad was depressed. I'm feeling a since of relief knowing my father is no longer in pain. He is no longer in that sick body and is spirit is set free. I know he is proud of my brother and I and forever will be watching over us. It hurts not having him hear physically but spiritually he is in my Heart forever

Jul 26, 2014
I can relate
by: April Fisher

Hi there. I lost my mom May 12, 2014.. she was advanced stages emphysema and diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer September 2012. That week was foggy and I had to go back to work the next week. I was surprisingly I'm for a month but gave been going down hill as of lately. My mom was my heart, my strength, my inspiration. No one can understand the emotions we feel through the loss of life and loss of that connection. I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope sharing our stories helps the healing. Every day is a new day. Maybe one day we will wake up and it will be a better one... minute by minute.. hour by hour.. day by day..... it's all we can do..

Jul 25, 2014
Daddy's gone
by: Doreen UK

Pam just honour your feelings. People will try to cheer you up but actually make things worse. They are listening but not hearing you say that you are not O.K. You won't be for some time as this grief courses through your body and mind and breaking you down. Assaulting your body with pain. No one knows what this grief feels like till they go through it. It is the PITS.
Oh! how it hurts so much to lose our loved ones'. Our world will change forever. Taking one day at a time helps, but this is a battle that will last some time. I am sorry for your loss of your DAD.

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