by Pam kennedy
In feb of 2012 dad suffered a stroke that left him with a left side deficit he did therapy and was recovering well then April 1,2014 he had a massive stroke and although he was fully aware he was unable to Speak eat or since we began total care. At this time we were slapped with the dreaded cancer diagnosis. Liver cancer. After three mths in rehab dad started going down we took him to hospital and found the cancer had spread to lungs and metastasized we were devastated that was two and a half weeks ago we moved him to hospice on a Tuesday and my daddy was gone Thursday two weeks ago today
I feel like my heart has been ripped out my dad and mom were my heart we were extremely close I feel like I'm walking through a fog nothing makes sense. I can't breathe can't eat can't sleep don't want to even get up and get dressed. My friends who mean well say you will be ok it takes time don't be sad UR dad wouldn't want you to be yes yes yes I hear you but right now right this minute right this second I'm NOT ok I AM sad and I miss him terribly. I long to hear his voice see his smile and feel his arms around me saying it's ok baby girl . I know he is not suffering but I am I know he is not in pain but I am I know he is whole but I'm not.