Daddy's Little Girl
by Maria H
When I hear people talking about their fathers in a bad way, it brings a tear to my eye. If I had a wish, it would be to spend time with my father, even if it was for a minute. People do not realise how fortunate they are to have their father by their side. People say that the true value of something is not realised until it is taken away.
My father had always been someone I could look up to as my hero and my inspiration. I could tell him anything because I was his little girl, we were inseparable, he had taught me how to read, write and spell. But when he passed away when I was 5, I felt that I had lost my father and my best friend, and that my world had come crashing down.
My mother blames me for my father's death. She even says it herself. She says how I am cursed from my past life, to be an orphan at a young age. She says how in my past life, I was disobedient to my parents, and so in this life, I'm being punished by not having a father in my life. Believe you me, it is very hurtful to hear your own mother say this to you. At the end of the day, I believe in predestination, and what ever happens is because Allah had willed for it to happen..
She also says if I was awake on the night that my father passed away, and called the ambulance, they would have come and he would probably still be alive, and the fact that I wasn't, means it's my fault.
I had lost my mentor, the person who was meant to help guide me through the many parts of growing up. My mother to be perfectly honest, has had no input into my education and studies over the past 11 years. I just want someone to motivate me to do well in my studies and support me in whatever I choose to do. I want someone that I can look up to and that would care for me and protect me no matter what..
Although I only spent 5 years with you, they were the best 5 years of my life, and I will never forget those moments spent with you. You may not be here, but you will always be in my heart.