Dads passing on 25th august
Dad was diagnosed with bowel cancer in january 2014. He was told at this time that there was nothing which could be done for him in terms of treatment and it would be a matter of months before he died. He died on 25th August. My brothers and sister were at his side. I chose not to be there for my own selfish reasons (my husband was in a terrible accident 3 yrs ago and i have been traumatised as a result of attending the hospital during these yrs). I didnt think i would take my dads death as bad as i have. I am wrecked with guilt. I didnt say goodbye, i should have been there for him in his last hours. My siblings say i wouldnt have wanted to be there as he was in so much pain. Im filled with anger also. Throughout my dads illness my mum who is in her 70,s was promised a hospital bed at home, palliative care, *acmillan cancer nurses etc. my mum got zero help right up until the end. Im so angry also that my dad wasnt given a driver even though he was writhing around in pain for approx 6 hrs a few hrs prior to his death. Why did the hospital let him suffer despite mum asking the hospital staff to do something. Im just so angry and upset that he had to suffer like this. I dont know how to get over this.