darkest day of my life

by chitra Agrawal
(Kota, Rajasthan, India)

i woke up early in the morning, finished my YOGA had bath , made breakfast and tea ,waiting for my dear husband to wake up, when he did not wake up ,I went near his bed and found him fast asleep, i tried to wake him up but no response, then some sixth sense told me something was wrong , I ran out called my neighbour , he came , called a neighbour doctor who declared my husband was no more . I could not believe it he was perfect and had dinner as usual ,slept alright ,then how could he go like this . He never used to go any where without me or without telling me .Till to day even after 14 months I still think how could happen it to me or him . Why ? why ? why ? I want to ask God . I feel lonely , my kids are wonderful, I have no money problem but there is a vacuum in life , my husband's place is empty.I have lost all interest in life and I can't see any color .

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Aug 10, 2012
darkest day
by: Anonymous

I lost my husband in a very unfortunate manner. For the last 10 years I had no time to cry. Now, when kids are grown up, I feel the jabbing loneliness. If the average age is 70, I have 30 more years to live. Oh my God!

Jul 12, 2012
darkest day of my life
by: Doreen U.K.

Dear Chitra Agrawal, I am sorry for your loss of your husband so suddenly. I lost my husband 8 weeks ago. my husband had a horrible suffering with cancer. He did not want to die. None of us do. But sadly people die quickly and suddenly. It is us who suffer going on in life without them. Life does become very lonely and empty. We wonder how we are going to go on in life without our loved one. You do this one day at a time. Every new day when I wake up. I CRY AND CRY. I tell God I miss my husband. I can't believe he has gone. Suddenly 44 years of marriage seem so small. it just may have been 44days. Men spend most of their time at work and so this shortens our life with our loved one. Even having enough money to live on and children around us. This helps. But it doesn't lessen our sorrow. It is as you say THE DARKEST DAY OF OUR LIVES.
I know how you feel and what you are going through. You are not alone. Take comfort from this. I hope in the days ahead that you can rest from your sorrow and grief and have time to reflect on your life and be in a happier place.

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