Dean Bradley Burgess 1987-2010, 23 years young

by Kay Burgess
(nsw Australia)


Deano, my lovable kind and happy go lucky son was Killed in a car accident on his way to work. He died instantly. Deano grew up riding horses and going to rodeos, a country boy at heart. He loved animals, he always brought stray dogs home when he was a kid and used to tell me they just followed him.

He was always an outdoor type kid; when he was 15 he went to the outback to work on a huge cattle station, He wanted it so badly so I drove over 1500 klms to take him there and meet the manager. He stayed there a while but we both missed each other so much we spoke on the phone most nights.
He came back home and worked for my brother who was a builder for a while until he found his calling driving heavy machinery. He really loved it. He had just landed the job of his dreams.

I just cannot seem to ease the pain, I feel like my heart has been torn apart. I adored my son. I am at a loss what do do ...At night I light a candle for my son and cry myself to sleep looking at his photo. In the morning I see the light and think ohhh no not another day without him. I know I should be thankful for my life but I don't care about my life..I would rather it had been me instead.

Dean has been gone since May 11 this year and I have cried every day since. Only a mother knows the feeling of pain and loss after your child has gone forever. What I wouldn't give to put my hand on his chest and feel the beat of his heart. I have so many beautiful memories of us doing everything together. I feel My Dean in my heart and will for eternity. I am taking one day at a time. Its so very hard. Kay

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Apr 04, 2015
another Birthday
by: Kay (mum)

Happy Birthday my darling son...Deano another one has come and gone.I still have trouble on your birthday...you should be here with me,with the family.I know you are always near in spirit.I miss you more than ever...I would love to hold you in my arms and never let you go..I Love you with all of my heart and soul I will for eternity.Until we meet again my sweet son xxxxxxx

Apr 22, 2014
eternal love
by: mum

My darling son your birthdate has come and gone such a bittersweet time.Remembering that day you were born when I first held you and looked into your eyes that were wide opened.From that moment on I knew we would share a love ,a bond of the deepest,strongest love imaginable for eternity.I still feel that love more deeply and more stronger than ever.I miss you so much.....my heart aches for you my son,I know they say time heals....I don't believe this to be true.My life will never ever be the same without you Deano.I long to put my arms around you and hug you as a mother should hold her son.I talk to you often ....I know you hear me darling.I reach out to you close my eyes and send you my love.I know you also send me your love because I am overwhelmed with love at these times.
I carry on with my life but its different and difficult ....its so hard to smile when inside your heart is actually aching so badly you feel like you could die.
To others it may appear that I am ok,doing alright but Im shattered still.I find myself playing a video in my mind of all years,all the memories over and over.I love you my wonderful son you live on in my heart and mind. Eternal love mum xxxxx

May 10, 2013
3 Years xx
by: <3 Gemm <3

Morning Dean,
Three years without you - how can that be possible? What have I done, and what have I become? Sometimes these days it feels that our life together was a dream. The memory of being loved and of loving someone so much, of trusting someone so completely, the companionship, the laughter, the caring for each other.....it all seems so far away now - another time, another world and a happy one.
I can't really explain what life without you is like. It is becoming harder and harder to express myself. I keep my feelings to myself, I tell people I'm ok, I keep busy and seem pretty normal, I think.
But, actually, the void you have left in my life is as huge as ever and, as the memories of our happy life become increasingly remote, so the things that fill my life are largely mundane and meaningless.
I try to avoid thinking of what might have been and of how we now should be enjoying that longed for retirement together. Instead I still focus on next steps. I try not to think about the future and dread the lonely old age that may lie ahead.
And so to my next steps - soaking in the beautiful sadness that for me now fills the landscape around our house. And then? Another autumn, our birthdays, Christmas, another cold hard winter. And what then? More of the same.
It's very hard to find meaning in all of this without you, babe. I know that the answer lies in the grander scheme of things and, although I still struggle to find a perspective, I will try, in your memory, to begin to make a more significant contribution to society than I do at present. For all you have given me during our years together, you deserve that from me.
What a wonderful man you were and how I miss you.
With all my love as always. Gemm xx
R.I.P Dean Bradley

Apr 01, 2013
Happy Birthday
by: Anonymous

Happy Birthday Dean we love and miss you so much xxxxxxxx

Mar 30, 2013
Easter
by: Anonymous

Happy Easter Dean again time is not been a healer for us you have left behind. love and miss you still xxxx Hope the Easter Bunny found you and you got so many eggs you have chocolate all over your beautiful face. xxx

Feb 13, 2013
Valentines Day
by: Anonymous

Happy Valentines Day Dean with our love xx.

I'M SENDING A DOVE TO HEAVEN
WITH A PARCEL ON IT'S WINGS
BE CAREFUL WHEN YOU OPEN IT
IT'S FULL OF LOVELY THINGS.
INSIDE ARE A MILLION KISSES
WRAPPED UP IN A MILLION HUGS
TO SAY HOW MUCH WE MISS YOU
AND TO SEND YOU ALL OUR LOVE
WE HOLD YOU CLOSE WITHIN OUR HEARTS
AND THERE YOU WILL REMAIN
TO WALK WITH US THROUGH OUR LIFE
UNTIL WE SEE YOU AGAIN. xxxx

Dec 31, 2012
new year day
by: Anonymous

Wow Dean it is so hot here today I'm sure you would be going down to he Allyn for a swim and a fish. Maybe you are doing that.

Dec 31, 2012
New Year
by: Anonymous

I wish you a Happy and Peaceful New Year Dean and like so many others I/we miss you so much. Your mum is so right when she says it doesn't get any easier. They say time heals but somehow I'm now not a believer in that. So you have the best of New Year wherever you are and keep in touch with us as we all need you still. xxxxx

Dec 26, 2012
you live on
by: MUM (kay)

My darling son,xmas is one of the hardest times for me....every little thing reminds me of you..of us.... all the christmas we shared...sneaking to place your xmas gifts under the tree.all the years we spent with family together from when you were a small baby.Family holidays ,swimming,fishing laughing and just sharing the LOVE and each others company.Those are the times I will cherish with all my heart.I am so shattered this xmas....without you my son..it doesnt seem to get any easier.I LOVE you so much.You will for ever live on in my heart...cause my darling it is of me you were a part.

Dec 25, 2012
Merry Christmas Dean
by: Anonymous

Merry Christmas Dean you are so badly missed by so many people. I'm still reeling over your death and still can not come to terms with it. No one to come and say "good morning Mum" Life will never be the same without you in it. Not just for me but for so many of us. xxxx Please be at peace.

Dec 22, 2012
This morning
by: Anonymous

Hellow Dean
This morning on my morning walk I missed you so much, NO one comes over and said Hi Mum to me anymore. Every time I see that culvert on my walk you know how much I cringe at it. I talk to you every morning. Please pay me a visit at Christmas and please bring Pipsqueak with you. I know you have family to visit so a quick hello will be fine. Still can not believe this has happened to you. Time doesn't seem to be helping that much.

Dec 14, 2012
To Dean with love.
by: Anonymous

Im sending a dove to heaven
With a parcel on it's wings
Be careful when you open it
It's full of lovely things.

Inside are a million kisses
Wrapped up in a million hugs
To say how much I miss you
And to send you all my love.

I hold you close within my heart
and there you will remain
T walk with me through my life
Until I see you again.

Dec 12, 2012
To our Dean who we all love so very much
by: Anonymous

You never said I'm leaving
You never said goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why...

A million times we needed you
A million times we've cried
If love alone could have saved you
You never would have died.....

In life we loved you dearly
In death we love you still
In our heart we hold a place
That only you can fill.

Still miss you so much xxxx

Dec 12, 2012
To Dean
by: Anonymous

I don't need a star on my tree
I already have one in Heaven shining down on me....

Love you Dean xxxx

Dec 12, 2012
To Dean
by: Anonymous

To Dean with love

Do you think there's a Christmas in heaven?
Because I have loving family up there,
I can no longer give them special gifts,
But I want them to know I still care....

So I'll send them my love forever,
And send prayers that they're doing just fine...
And my thoughts that will always be with them,
With a promise they'll always be mine.

Merry Christmas to all of my family,
Who are resting in Heaven above...
Although you are no longer here on earth,
I still feel and sense your love...

xxxx


Oct 21, 2012
My sweet boy
by: Kay (mum)

The last 3 weeks have been so hard for me ..my grief has hit me like a truck ..so hard and so deep.It becomes all emcompassing, devouring every bit of the me I was.Leaving an empty shell of a women who ,,for most days operates life on auto pilot.I feel numb...so numb.I think of you every minute of every day.I love you Deano with all my heart and always will.xxx mum

Oct 19, 2012
John Overholt
by: Anonymous

Oh Dean, John Overholt will be with you soon. I'm asking can you make him feel welcome and show him the ropes. He is the one Gemma and I went to, trying to cope with the loss of you. Still love you and miss you so much.

Sep 09, 2012
To Dean with Love
by: Anonymous

If we couled have a lifetime,
A dream that would come true,
We'd pray to God with all our hearts
For yesterday and YOU

A thousand words can't bring you back
We know because we've tried
Neither will a thousand tears
We know because we've cried.

You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too
But we never wanted memories
We only wanted YOU.

Aug 27, 2012
To our Dean with so much love.
by: Anonymous

When tomorrow starts without me
and I'm not here to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes,
filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn't cry,
the way you did today,
while thinking of many things
we didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you,
and each time you think of me
I know you'll miss me too

When tomorrow starts without me
don't think we're far apart
for every time you think of me
I'm right there in your heart.

Aug 23, 2012
my heart aches so much
by: mum

It has been 27 months since I lost my wonderful son Dean.The pain is still so strong.
I have never known a pain so deep.
My still aches and I cannot sleep,
Part of me has gone with you,
A piece of me died that day too.
I cannot think straight, cant remember
things that I do.
My mind seems crazy with the loss of you.
What to do what to say.....when someone says
How you doing today?I tell them that I am ok
But inside my heart has so much pain.
I will never ever be the same.
I feel shattered and torn....broken to bits.
A huge part of me is missing
and nothing quite fits.
My darling,my baby you live in my mind,
when I close my eyes
its your face that I find
The countless memories of 23 years
are played over and over through the heartache and tears.
Love for eternity Mum xxxx










I love you for eternity




Aug 10, 2012
missing you
by: Anonymous

Just thinking of you and wish you were here.

Jul 21, 2012
Oh why
by: Anonymous

It is so hard that you are not here with us. Everyone misses you so so so very much. Not a day goes by that I do not think and shed a tear for you. With so much love. xxxx

Jul 13, 2012
my son
by: mum

My son Deano is loved by so many people both young and old alike,he had respect for people,he cared about people....he had an enormous heart and loved to share his time with his wonderful friends.Deano had a zest for life every chance he got he would be off camping with his mates and his favourite saying was " Im just Livin the dream".I hope and pray that you have found peace ,I am so proud to be your mother.I have so so many wonderful memories of us from a newborn baby to a fine young man.Thankyou Deano for those wonderful 23 years.Eternal Love Mum xxx

Jul 13, 2012
my only beautiful son.
by: mum

I love you so much my son,but you already know that.We had such a wonderful relationship sharing everything,all the good times and the bad.You were there for me throughout your short life and I was there for you.I remember our camping trips together,Tamworth,and one that I really enjoyed was the times we went to Lake Sinclair we laughed so much together,fishing,swimming.I have so many wonderful memories my darling.On the farm when we reared the poddy calves together and when they were older you rode them and we laughed so much.I long for the day when we meet again and I can hold you in my arms and never let you go.My pain is still so hard to bare.I love you for Eternity xxxx mum

Jul 12, 2012
I want to hold you
by: Mum

Deano my darling
I have tried so hard to go on with my life.It is still so hard with out you to hug and laugh with to talk with to love.I long so much to hold you in my arms and never let you go.My baby ,my son .We shared such a close relationship,we shared so much.I love you so much with all my heart and soul.I still cry most nights ,I still have a pain in my heart that just aches endlessly.I at times laugh when I want to cry,I smile when Im sad,at night alone I cry when all I want to do is die.I cannot wait to join you.my life is so pointless even though I have people who love me.I am in a dark place...where I relive that day over and over when I first saw you after the accident.That sight will never leave my mind.I wanted so much to take my baby in my arms ,hold you as a mother holds her child.

May 31, 2012
Oh how I miss
by: Anonymous

I miss each morning when you always came over and said "hello mum" that always meant so so very much to me. Oh what a lovely, wonderful and extrodinary boy you ARE and I mean ARE.

May 16, 2012
never ending
by: Kay(mum)

My Darling Dean
I have not been good on a mental health level for a long time. I have not been able to come to this site for a while.It seemed to me every time I visited this site I hurt so bad.....I was on a downward spiral .I guess I was trying to avoid the neverending pain.The realisation of you never comming back.My heart is so shattered beyond repair.I have lived through another birthday,a 2 year anniversary and mothers day.I have no idea how......but I am still here .I love you with all my heart and soul ...it is not getting easier I miss you more everyday.You are in my heart for eternity my son
Mum

May 10, 2012
2 years
by: Anonymous

It's been two years since we lost you. Oh but how the hurt is still just as strong. It seems only a few weeks ago when I received that fatal phone call. Days, months and now years and so many tears have gone by. I miss you Dean. xx

Apr 14, 2012
love and healing
by: kay (mum)

Thankyou to all who loved my son.he touched the hearts of many.Love is all we need and love lives on for all of eternity.There is also much pain but love is more deep and powerful and will always and forever live inside our hearts .xxx

Apr 13, 2012
With Love
by: Anonymous

Easter has come and gone and I wished you a happy Easter. I wanted to visit the crash site, but knew your family would probably go there and that it was best for me to stay away. But I went yesterday. I'm sure you know I have had some serious problems and they told me I couldn't drive for 6 months, that was up yesterday.

Apr 03, 2012
pain and love
by: mum

Deano
I love you with every fibre of my being,I miss you so much.On your birthday Uncle Maxy went out and mowed your crash site,I went out there and sat for hours talking to you and playing the songs we sang to together.I cried so much it was like everything was fresh again and the pain just ripped through me,I was totally overcome with grief so deep.I looked up to the sky and saw 2 eagles circling.On the night of your birthday the family came over and we celebrated your life.We lit candles and then blew them out but 4 candles kept comming back on we blew them out several times.I just want to thankyou for joining us for your birthday.I know you were there.I love you with a love that will never dim but only grow stronger.I will see you soon Deano,when my time has come.Until that day you will be forever in my heart and on my mind. xxxxmum

Apr 01, 2012
Happy Birthday
by:

I thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
I thought about you yesterday.
And days before that too.
I think of you in silence.
I often speak your name.
Now all I have is memories.
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake.
With which i’ll never part.
God has you in his keeping.
I have you in my heart.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAN xx

Apr 01, 2012
Happy Birthday
by: Anonymous

It's your birthday tomorrow and I know everyone wishes you the best birthday wherever you are. So many people miss you and love you. You are such a special person.

Mar 17, 2012
To Dean With Love
by: Anonymous

To Dean
They say memories are golden. Well maybe that is true.
We never wanted memories, we only wanted you.
A million times we needed you. A million times we cried.
If love alone could have saved you. You never would have died

Mar 05, 2012
If only
by: Anonymous

Again if only. Missing you today, wish you were here to share this journey I'm on, I miss your support that I know you would give me.

Feb 23, 2012
I Love YOU
by: mum

My darling son,I miss you more each day.Your sister had a car accident today.When I got the call something shut down inside me.She was shaken up and no one was injured,the cars were a wreck.We can fix cars.I went home after the police left and I went to bed ,,,I just crumbled into a shell.I dont know what Im trying to say here but my heart is still breaking and I will never be the same.My son,I just want to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I adore you.I dream of holding your face in my hands and kissing your cheek.....I dream of all of the years from a baby to a young man.Thoughts of you never leave my mind and never will.Until we're together again I shall have a heartache that is so painful...I just could never have imagined.Peace to you my son.xxxlove ma

Feb 23, 2012
Again still only
by: Anonymous

Still if only.......

Feb 19, 2012
IF ONLY
by: Anonymous

If only........this didn't happen.

Dec 29, 2011
I Love YOU
by: mum

The build up to xmas is very hard,hearing the carols played in shopping centres just reminded me of all our xmas times shared together....I love you my darling son for ever.Now xmas is all over ,I feel empty and aching.I miss you more than words can say.Dean...you live on in my heart for eternity.What I wouldnt give to hold you in my arms stroke your hair and tell you how much you are loved.I close my eyes and do that everyday ,I talk to you every single day.I just know that you hear me because I get an overwhelming feeling of love.I wait for the day I can join you my son.I pray you are at peace.love always mum.xxxxxxxxxx

Dec 28, 2011
just Judy
by: kay (mum)

Judy
I appreciate the comments that you really did love my son and that you miss him.All who knew him loved him.I dont mind if you comment.I am having a bad time...and am trying to get my life together....I may appear to some as coping but I am not.Xmas is the hardest time of the year.I am lost.I am shattered without my boy.

Dec 24, 2011
grief
by: Anonymous

Hi Kay....we are both in the same boat. Your Deano and my Dimitri....both in Heaven. Do you think it's possible that they are both together right now looking down upon us?

Dec 24, 2011
xmas
by: Mum

It is just so heartbreakingly hard at xmas..not to have you here with your family.My wonderful son. I miss you so much I get a deep deep pain in my heart.Even though you live inside my heart and visit me often...I would love to hold you sweetheart and comfort you.I do so in my dreams.Until we are together again....I will miss your beautiful smile....I will cherish the moments we have shared with my whole heart.I LOVE YOU xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Dec 02, 2011
LOVE
by: kay( Mum)

I havent written here for a while....because it hurts so much.My handsome son,I think of you every day with so much heartache and so much love.I feel I am operating on a different level ....I will never ever as long as I live be the same.I go on with life,I smile,I laugh ,I love
but all the while my heart is in pain.You should be out with your mates fishing,swimming just having a laugh or a drink with the boys.....Your friends meant so much to you Deano.I am so pleased I did not hold you back when you were younger....you enjoyed so many experiences in your short life.We shared so many together over your 23 years my darling.I LOVE you more every day.Xmas means nothing to me anymore I dread the thought of it.Be at peace my darling son.xxxxx love mum

Nov 21, 2011
Oh Dean
by: mother in law

Oh Dean I miss you so much, the tears still pour down my face. Life will never be the same without you in it. If only we could change I would have gladly given my life for yours any day.

Oct 30, 2011
I adore you Deano
by: Kay (mum)

I am going backwards again ....I try so bloody hard to go on with my life although I know it will never be the same as long as I live.My beautiful son is on my mind every minute.I hate to drive at night because I think of Dean and the worst day of my life.I was going along and getting on with life as different and painful as it is trying to gain a small amount of normality.Then all of a sudden in a stressful situation I find myself back to square one I just locked myself away for days and couldnt talk to anyone.....I did talk but felt like a robot...like I wasnt really here. I am in a dark place again .....I will tomorrow try to lift myself up and start my journey again.I just want to say because of you Dean I will try again.You and I have a love and bond for all eternity. I love you my boy.

Oct 18, 2011
I miss you my beautiful boy
by: Mum (kay)

Firstly thank you for the beautiful thoughtful comment from a stranger.You are a caring person.
I miss my beautiful son Dean so much.My life as I knew it will never ever be the same.I do smile,laugh at times when I am company and when I am with my grandaughters and family.Its when I am alone or when I see a young man looking like my Dean that I go to pieces. I know my pain will continue as long as I live.We were so close he used to confide in me and I used to confide in him.People tell me to only think of the good times and memories.I do this everyday... its easy for those who havent lost a child that they gave birth to ,shared a special bond with and rared for 23 years.... I will never forget losing you my darling.I cant hold you in my arms like a mother should hold her son. I long for the day that I will be with you. I know that sounds selfish but life without you is just existing.My heart aches so badly. My darling son. I LOVE YOU.xxx

Oct 14, 2011
...touching a strangers life
by: Susan

I was looking an old friend up on facebook and came across the page for Dean. Interested to learn what had happened, I found this page. As a mom myself my heart goes out to you and all those affected by the loss of your boy. Continued blessings as you are on your path of healing.

Sep 11, 2011
I Love you so much Baby
by: Mum

I Love you so much my beautiful son,our love grows stronger each and every day.....I close my eyes and send you all my love and I feel your love coming to me so strong and beautiful.I miss you my darling more than words can ever say.17 months gone by without you to hug and chat to...but you live on in my heart for eternity.
It is not any easier these days....on the outside i manage a smile while on the inside my heart is aching so badly it is almost too much to bare.I am trying to be strong for my family but at times I just wish I could go to sleep and never wake up. I adore you Deano....you always knew that... I told you so often and still do. xxxmum.

Jul 21, 2011
anything
by: elkys friend gaige

iv never met him but elkys told me about him we love u

Jul 17, 2011
love
by: elky burgess

we will aways have a emty space in our hearts we love u deano

Jul 11, 2011
Sending Love to Dean Bradley <3
by: Gemma - Jane

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Jul 04, 2011
hi
by: Shirley

Hi Kay....just checking on you. Today is our independence day. It was always such a family holiday with all the kids. Dimitri was the glue. He's gone now....almost one year....his birthday is July 13th. Now my family is fractured. I hope he's "hangin" with your sweet son. I love the pictures you posted of him. I feel connected to you somehow and hope you know I pray for you.
Shirley

Jul 04, 2011
MENDINGTHE WOUNDS
by: judy

Kay i'm so happy you and Gemma are talking I had no other way of contacting you. judy

May 10, 2011
from one mom to another
by: Shirley

Kay...sending hugs to you. Both Dino and Dimitri died at the age of 23. So senseless. Maybe one day we will be blessed with understanding but until then I will grieve daily for both our boys.

May 10, 2011
one year on
by: Anonymous

I know there are many who would swap places with you so you could come and see everyone who misses you and of course I'm on that list too.

May 10, 2011
11-5-2011
by: MUM (kay)

Twelve months today,Deano you left this earthly plane.
Life as I knew it would never be the same.
The day I gave you birth is so vivid in my mind,
From the moment that I held you a bond formed that would last for all time.
Throughout the years both bad times and the good,
Nothing ever broke that bond ,nothing ever could.
That day you were taken,a piece of me went too
I felt a part of myself die along with you.
The 23 years of the love we shared,Im forever grateful for,
Dean my son, my only son whom I truly did adore.
I know you feel my love as I feel your love.. it will sustain.
That bond is still unbroken and forever will remain.
THIS IS ETERNAL LOVE missing you my son.xxx
Love you for Eternity.

May 09, 2011
One Year in Heaven TOMORROW :-(
by: Gemma - Jane

One year in heaven,
One year you've been there,
So far away,
Someday I'll see you in the air,
One year in heaven,
I miss you so much,
Smile down upon me,
And show me your love.

One year in heaven,
It seems like so long,
Since the last time I saw you,
And then you were gone,
One year in heaven,
You left earth to soon,
But I know they need you,
More then I do,

One year in heaven,
I'm alone on the earth,
I miss your sweet kisses,
And all that you're worth,
One year in heaven,
Is God really there?
Why did he take you,
As I cried in despair.

One year in heaven,
I still see your face,
The day that you took,
The last breath you would take,
One year in heaven,
Why did you die,
I know God needed you,
But still I cry.

One year in heaven,
Soon I'll be there,
So wait by the gate,
Please, this do swear,
One year in heaven,
To me it is long,
But you have no pain,
From this earth you have gone.

One year in heaven,
It's so hard to move on,
I'll send you a prayer,
And sing you a song,
One year in heaven,
Life's not the same,
Since you left this world,
I'm living in a daze.

One year in heaven,
You watch from above,
Sit there and smile,
And send me your love,
One year in heaven,
You may think it's just a day,
But this world is so different,
Since God took you away
I LOVE YOU DEAN BRADLEY FOREVER AND ALWAYS,Your my Heart and Soul xoxox

May 07, 2011
DEVERYTHING IS STILL SO SAD WITHOU YOU
by: mum in law judy

The world is a sadder place without you in it

It is a year next week when we lost you and it still hurts so much

Apr 25, 2011
bonded soul to soul
by: kay (mum)

My Darling Son


You gave a gift, you opened my heart to so much more
I still have deep pain but you have opened up a door
To something I've always felt but now even stronger than before
About the love I have within,the loved we share
How strong it is and to that nothing can compare
After all is said and done it was of me , you were apart
Connected soul to soul ,always were right from the very start
For all eternity,throughout the universe my love for you is sworn
Only deeper my dear son has it grown since you were born.
You are now one with the universe a spirit free to soar above,
Be what you want ,go where you will,and visit those you love...


I adore you Deano love for eternity MUM

Apr 24, 2011
HAPPY EASTER TO DEAN
by: Anonymous




Dean it is anzac day I went to the dawn service and all I could think of was you. love your mum in lAW JUDY

Apr 24, 2011
Happy Easter baby
by: Gemma-Jane

Happy Easter to my beautiful man who I love with
All my heart and miss millions xoxox
I love you Dean Bradley forever and always Dean and Gemma together forever xoxox rip baby

Apr 23, 2011
missin you
by: Kay (MUM)

Deano
Its Easter time,and I am so sad deep in my heart.I miss you more than life itself.I am still in deep pain which I believe will go on until you come to take me with you,my son.I love you with all my heart.There is not a day goes by that I dont cry for you...just to hold you..hear your voice...see your smile.Why you?so young so handsome..... I love you my son,I hope you are at peace and I know how much you love me and you know how very much I love you....xoxoxoxoxoxox

Apr 21, 2011
hugs
by: Shirley

I still have to face Dimitri's birthday in July. My birthday was 3 weeks after his and he died 8 days after my birthday so all those dates will hit me at the same time. I dread it with all my heart. Sending hugs and here's hoping that your Dean and my Dimitri spent Dean's birthday partying in Heaven.

Apr 21, 2011
eASTER FOR DEAN
by: Anonymous

Just sitting at my computer and a wave of grief came over me and how much I reaally miss you and how much you are loved by everyone who knows you especially me.

Apr 04, 2011
Peace
by: Kay (mum)

My darling son, some of your close friends and your sister and nieces Elky ,Layla, uncle Maxy and cousins Mel and Charlie got together on the date of your birth to celebrate your life with us. 23 years young my beautiful young man . Everyone got a helium filled balloon and wrote a message for you. We then released them and and called out your name and toasted to your life....It was a lovely gesture and tribute to you darling....But still I am shattered......shattered beyond anything I have ever faced in my life. I am flooded with memories of your childhood....from the day you were born...Your memories I will hold so dearly...so close to my heart.How can I live on without you? Wearing a mask of normality....while inside I am slowly dying. My wish for you is peace and happiness of your beautiful soul. You are missed so very much. I love you for eternity. Mum xxxxxxxxxxx

Apr 03, 2011
Happy Birthday
by: Gemma Jane

Happy Birthday Dean Bradley I love you forever
And always xoxoxox

Apr 02, 2011
deaan with love
by: Anonymous

I bought a beautiful macaw and called her Deana after you Dean.

Dec 17, 2010
Going Home
by: Anonymous

My son went home to Jesus because of a river accident. My faith is all that keeps me going right now and it's been a year and a half. He was 39 years old. I too feel your pain, but I know all is well with them and we'll all be together again through Jesus' love. Sincerely Ray P.

Dec 05, 2010
mothers
by: kay

Thank you for all my messages I truly appreciate them coming from other mothers who certainly understand what the deep pain is. Mothers (mostly) are such strong committed and loving people where our children are concerned. We are now brokenhearted and will never be back to our "normal" way of life.....we will battle on ...beneath a mask of inner pain for the rest of our days...We will never stop missing and loving our children.I wish you all love and some kind of inner healing and peace..xoxoxoxoxox

Nov 30, 2010
I love you xx
by: Gemma-Jane

I have always loved you and I always will !!
I love you dean bradley xx together forever dean
& gemma xx

Nov 10, 2010
missin you
by: mum

I feel this aching in my heart, its an agony I cannot explain
This date every month brings to me such suffering and pain.
I relive that day over so many times as each day passes by,
The disbelief, the numbness, the shock. all I could do was scream and cry.
I can't remember how many times Ive asked the question WHY?
I wanted to hold you in my arms and kiss your handsome face,
To banish all this nightmare away and be left without a trace.
When at first I saw you darling, I fell down on my knees,
Screaming "no not my baby, not my baby Please"
I looked to see your injuries, but I saw my own child forever asleep.
Your soul was taken to a sacred place for the universe to keep.
I wanted so badly to touch you and tell you I was there.
To hold your face between my hands and touch your tousled hair.
The pain has never lifted and at times I feel I cant go on,
But I have another child and grandchildren and family....for them please make me strong.
You haven't really left me son,I feel your presence often near,
When I close my eyes at night its your voice I hear.
I know my time has not yet come to live in spirit with you.
I know you'll come to take me home when my time is due.
So until then, my child, my sweet young man.
I will always send you my deepest love and talk of you as often as I can.
I love you baby xoxoxoxox mum RIP

Oct 23, 2010
the best boy of all time
by: Anonymous

We lost Dean last May and the sadness so many feel and will forever; he was my daughter's fiance and the love of her life, she will never be the same.

Oct 13, 2010
many thanks
by: kay

Thank you to all who commented and gave me hope. I am greatful to all for your heartfelt messages. I am so sad to hear of your losses and I am sending you heaps of love and healing. When you lose a child you lose part of your self. Thank you also Jackie,I know Dean spoke to you and enjoyed a beer and some laughs. Thank you for the time taken to spend with him.xxx

Oct 09, 2010
missing our nightly chats and random drinks. love you deano
by: jacki

Kay, I was missing deano and decided to find the article seeing as the original I had was destroyed by u kno whom.
I was touched by this. got me crying again.

I miss that cheeky bugger every day. it's almost been 5months and I still wish we were all enjoying his laughter.

it's so hard to believe that he's not here. even being there that day I just wanted to pretend it wasn't him. that he'd come home and honk when he drove past. that always meant come over for a beer and a chat. and they reckon seeing is believing...not in this case. every morning I'd be awake at 5 cos I'd hear his cruiser warming up ready for him to leave. but it was just me hoping for it all to be a bad dream.

I know I, myself found it hard to grasp that I'd never see him come down the driveway again or I'd never hear a knock on my door, and for me to open it and see him running away leaving a 6 pack on his sneaky exit. I can only begin to imagine your pain. I read ur posts everyday.

Kay you are forever in my mind and I hope that when I'm back in nsw il b able to come see u.
stay safe and strong. ur support network is amazing xx

Oct 09, 2010
Too Young
by: Charlotte Tyler

Dear Kay,

Twenty-three is far too young to die. I know the pain that you are feeling. My youngest daughter died on June 19, 2009. I can say that I don't experience the daily episodes of agonizing pain and grief, but not a day goes by that I don't miss her. I still see how uncomfortable everyone is when I talk about her, and how I love to talk about her. My advice is to take baby steps. There is no mold to fit into when it comes to grief. I'm blessed with a personal relationship with God, and I look forward to seeing Kristi again. You are doing the right thing by seeking out other grieving parents who understand what you are feeling. Please feel free to contact me on Facebook or email me @bayouhoneysuckle@aol.com, and we can share beautiful memories of our children with each other.

Oct 08, 2010
Lost of a son
by: Kim

I too lost my son 3/17/10. He had just turned 28 years old. You are so right that only a mother who had lost a child can know what we all are going through. I struggle everyday without my son. I miss him so much as you do your son. My heart and prayers go out to you because I also feel your pain and sadness.

Kim

Oct 08, 2010
loss of a son
by: Lynda F

I too have lost a son. It's been two years and I am a little bit better. I still have that heart pain and cannot think of him with out crying. But I am starting to participate more in life.
I am not in that shocked state that I am sure you are in, but I have found that one can function quite well in that way for a while.

Please know that my heart goes out to you and your family. My deepest sympathies. Please feel free to comment back to me.
Peace to you,
Lynda

Oct 08, 2010
Our Beloved Sons
by: Kay

Kay....I also lost my 23 year old son this year. His Heavenly birthdate was August 9th. I miss him terribly. He died of leukemia. He was diagnosed at the end of May and died in 10 weeks. He was so hopeful that he would beat the cancer. I feel like my heart has been ripped out. I know your pain. It's pretty awful, isn't it? I keep reminding myself when I'm really down to concentrate on "one step and one breath". Sometimes that's all I can deal with.

Hugs to you,
Shirley - mom of Dimitri

Oct 08, 2010
My beloved son too
by: Marsha

Dear Kay:
I can't make you feel better, but I can share that I just lost my beloved son, Mark, almost 3 weeks ago. I am so numb. Mark was funny and a free spirit. He is my only child and was 34 years old. Mark died in his sleep. I still keep feeling like I can turn the clock back and save him. But, I also know he is with God. I am changed forever, but I want to keep his memory and spirit alive as long as I am here.

I won't share my emotions because you know them all too well. I talked to him every day.I still do. He was big and strong and had never been really sick.

As mother to mother I will pray for you as I hope you will for me. I send you love and light for great memories. I still try to smile and laugh over funny stories. He laughed a lot. I try to envision he is laughing with god and talking everyone's ear off. Love from another mother who loves her son.

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