Deano I am back to square one....

by kay Burgess
(Australia)

My baby, I am missing you more than ever....my heart never stops aching but is always full of love at the same time. I picture your face and send you all my love from deep in my heart. I can also feel love you send to me. The past 5 and a half months have been a pure nightmare. I am hoping very soon that all conflicts will be resolved either way. I want the whole situation gone as it is slowly destroying me. I want peace and be able to grieve for my beautiful son.

I am acting on your behalf my darling, we always stuck together baby, I am still here for you..I love you more than life itself. I thought I was progressing a tiny bit down the stages of grief but here I am back to square one. I am crying every night, I want to hold you in my arms and comfort you. You were the light in my life.

In all of your illnesses and injuries over the short 23 years you lived I was always there along with uncle Max, who also adored you like a son. I know that I am the only one who can heal myself.... as much as I try ...I cant do it... OOOhhh my son I am missing your laughter, your smile and your hugs. I will love you until eternity,my darling.. Mum xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox