death of a soulmate

by amy faust

On December 20 th of last year my husband friend soulmate took his own life. He left me and our two young teenage children all alone. We have recently moved from our home where he did the deed. I miss him greatly especially dealing with our kids. We were married for 17 years some were good others not but we never went to bed angry. I sometimes feel like he will just pop up and say hey why so sad it was just a prank but then I wake up and realize it is not he truly is gone. If I am to be honest if it was not for my children sad as it is I would have probably joined him. I don't know how to get my life back on track I used to be strong able to make my own decisions now I am questioning everything.

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Jun 23, 2014
death of a soulmate
by: Doreen UK

Amy I am so sorry for your loss of your soulmate to suicide. I lost my nephew to suicide 9yrs. ago at the age of 30. He threw himself in front of an express train. He was on meds for depression that carried suicidal feelings. he could not live in his world of pain anymore and lost his ability to go on in life. Life will never be the same again.
Life is getting more and more complex and difficult and many families can't cope with this and often the family is torn apart by the loss of the breadwinner.
It is good that you are a strong woman. So am I. You will not lose this asset, but this will be interrupted by grief and you will have days when you feel weak and worn out and not able to get the strength to do what you normally handled with ease. This is an aspect of grief. You will in time recover this strength. It hasn't left you. Grief assaults us in so many ways and our emotions bear the biggest assault.
Caring for children somehow gives us the strength to go on in life. Moving home for some people is not an option and may be a good thing to do. For me I made many changes to our home after losing my husband of 44yrs. to cancer 2yrs. ago. I just drift through life now with little motivation to do anything else, despite still accomplishing a lot each day in normal duties. The house is empty and this is what hurts. The loneliness a widow is left with despite having children. She is left bereft of companionship and love which nurtured her and helped her in life. Living like this is no joy. Don't despair and give up Hope. WE woman/mothers have many duties to carry on for our children no matter how old they are. They will look to us for guidance and strength in their difficult days. They have a need, and so will you and all of us left with our grief.

Jun 23, 2014
For Amy
by: Maryann

Dear Amy,

I'm very sorry for your loss. I lost my second husband to suicide 4 months ago and my first husband died 10 years ago from drinking vodka when he wasn't suppose to eat or drink anything. I also feel lost. I have three children, 2 with my first husband and my youngest with my second husband. He's 17 years old and refuses to even talk about his dad. I think at first it's total shock then realization sets in. I've been coming to this site for several months and have to say it helps me to know I'm not the only one having these feelings and there are so many wonderful people on here that care. I'm hoping that it gets a little easier as time goes by like so many people on this site have found. Thank you for sharing your story. I will be praying for peace for both of us.

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