Death of My Husband due to AML

by Savita

My husband was very smart and handsom man of 6 feet 2 inches. He never felt ill before. He was diagnosed with AML2 on 12th June 2012. We both went to admit him in the hospital and he himself drove the car. On 14th June he admited in the hospital. On 15th June the doctor told me that his platelets are very low, so I have to arrange for a jumbo pack. When I was arranging the same the doctor called me and told that they don't need the platelets. They told that he needs chemotherapy and they stated the chemo on 15th of June for 72 hours. On 20th June his First Chemo Completed. He was very good and i was also very happy that nothing has happened. For next four days he was under observation in hospital. He asked me for different dishes and i prepared everything for him. On 24th night suddenly a sever pain started in his stomach. The doctor told that it is due to the ston. but not sure. On 25th urin stoped and on 26th they told us that his kidneys are not working so he needs dialysis. We shifted him in another hospital. After four days of dailysis his urine passed on 30th Jun. We were very happy. but again the urine stopped on 3rs July. He cryied on 8th. He told me that change my hospital otherwise i will not survive and told him i will not let him die. First time i believed on God but all vain. On 13th I shifted my Husband to another big hospital. They told that their is a blockage in his bladder so their will be a small surgery and he will be fine. The doctor told me that the disease is curable. On 14th July his surgery done. He didnt open his eye and on 20th July he left me & my 11year old daughter alone in this world. I miss him very much. I cry whenever i am alone.

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Oct 19, 2013
I know your grief
by: Colleen

My husband died Monday from AML. I have never known such pain, despair, loneliness . I weep for you and your child and myself.

Sep 11, 2013
Feeling lonely after 13 months and 10 days
by: Doreen U.K.

Anonymous I know exactly how you feel. I lost my husband of 44yrs. 16 months ago to cancer. I nursed him for 3yrs.39days. He was my first love and my last. I loved him beyond and more. He was my heartbeat. Now mine beats alone. I can't think of another man EVER. But I am happy for those people who do find love again and are happy. this is different for each of us. It doesn't mean those who marry again loved their spouse any less. It is emotionally healthy to move on in life and be happy. This is what we were created for. TO BE IN RELATIONSHIP. We can't become emotionally healthy living in isolation. We need people in our life even if it is just for companionship. We all have our own needs in life and many find life a struggle living alone.
Crying is a very healthy main expression of grief. Take yourself off into a private space when you need to cry. I always feel better after a good cry. I am feeling more comfortable in myself, but I would give anything to have my husband back. I MISS HIM. If you find you have no one to talk to you can book a few sessions with a grief counsellor. This would help take the sting out of your grief and also give you the personal time and space you need to express yourself and your needs. I did the counselling bit many years ago and got myself into an emotionally stable place and able to cope better now. I even lost my depression. After surviving depression for 40yrs. It has never come back. Best wishes.

Sep 11, 2013
Feeling lonely after 13 months ans 10 days
by: Anonymous

I have already written about my loss of husband.
Now after one year i am feeling alone every time i feel like i should die and be with my husband in heaven. I don't think i will ever come out from this.Now i am a very good actress as i always smile, look like a very happy person from outside but i only know what is going in me. I can;t discuss anything with my parents as they are old not with my daughter as she is very your. I can;t even cry in front of them. Every time i miss my husband.yesterday One of my college suggesting me to get married again. Is it possible if you love some one so much to let another man come in your life. I cannot think other men in my life. He was my first and last love. I feel no man can palce my husband in my life. I don't know why but i can't find a man more adrable than my husband.

Oct 10, 2012
Loss of Husband AML
by: Louisa Okoro

Hi Savita,

My heart goes out to you and your little girl. All the ifs cannot change anything, for the love of your husband and your daughter you have to be strong to build a life for both of you, thats what your husband will be proud of, a tomorrow for yourself and a life for your daughter. Grief is a killer when not handled with wisdom, please seek help however it is available in your country, if there is no one to speak to, come to this website, we are all here to share with each other. You may also keep a journal putting your thoughts into letters for your husband. My prayer with you now and always.

Oct 09, 2012
Death of My Husband due to AML
by: Doreen U.K.

Savita I am sorry for your loss of your husband to AML.
You seem to have had a rough time with all the different visits to different hospitals. Seeing so many different doctors all with different results but no one really sorting out your husband's medical problems.
You must feel that the doctors let you down. A hospital should be equiped to deal with the medical conditions that present unless of a special category.
You will be very hurt by this loss when you did not expect this. You had the expectation that your husband would recover according to one doctor. I hope that you have some family members to sit with you and help you work through your grief. It is not good for you to be on your own. I guess in your part of the world you would have access to a grief counsellor so you could talk to someone who can help you.

Oct 09, 2012
by: Anonymous

Hi Savita,
I just wanted you to know that you are not alone. I lost my beloved wife last March. I don't have any answers for you only that you are not alone. All of my blessings go to you to provide you some solace.

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